Lost | A Connor McDonough Fan Fiction

Chapter 15

The strange sense of relief I have after breaking up with Hunter is surprising. I never knew that removing something completely from your life could actually have positive affects instead of negative ones. Well, aside from drinking and drugs but I hope that's obvious to other people as it is with myself, but that's off topic. Anyway, my point is that breaking up with Hunter has been probably the most logical and best thing that I have decided to do in a really long time. Or at least in a span of the past few months.

If you're wondering, the answer is yes. I do still miss him. Him as in the real him, not Hunter.

Connor is one of those people that you either love or hate- I feel like there's no in between. After being with him 24/7 for the longest time, I've come to realize that Connor is a special person and not everybody is used to his kind of personality, which is probably one of the most difficult personalities to describe.

His personality is kind, loyal, and sweet, a very understanding person. He's quite sensible and mathematical at the same time, so when your mind is cluttered with unnecessary thoughts, he helps you pull out the facts and truth of everything. His personality is very contradicting- usually it's those sweet, genuinely caring people that are dreamers and never see the realism in anything, which in my opinion is scary. I could never live that way.

But the major contradiction is Connor's realistic nature and quick, factual thoughts. Typically, it's those kind of people that are brutally honest and lack in personality, too realistic to read between the lines. I detest those kind of people. They make me feel stupid and insecure about my intelligence level, to be honest.

Mainly, that's how I seperate people- the sweetheart dreamers and the emotionless geniuses.

But Connor? He's the perfect blend between both. He's that go to guy when you're having a mental breakdown. He's that guy who helps make sense of everything and even when the world seems to be crumbling beneath you, he pulls you out of that rut and makes the world a million times better.

He will tell you the facts, no matter how horrible they are, and you will believe him, then afterwards he'd be the same guy to offer to take you to get ice cream and stay at home the whole night to cry, not judging you for one second.

He's that sweet, charismatic guy towards his friends, family, and really anybody unless you come off as a threat to him or someone close to him. When that happens, there's a different side to him. Very dark, defensive and secluded. Definitely not one to be tested with. I have seen him this way very limited times, once when we went out on one of our late-night Chipotle runs. We were walking out of Chipotle towards Connor's car down the street and there was a group of built, intimidating guys outside. They were your average stereotype of meaty jocks, mostly muscle and less brain. They started hollering at Connor and I, mainly me though. One of the guys distinctly shouted, "Damn, check out that ass." I winced and regretted wearing shorts instead of sweatpants. Connor wrapped his arm around me defensively and we continued walking quickly, but Connor began to be pestered more by the guys after he put his arm around me. Connor's grip tightened more and more until he stopped walking and whispered in my ear, "Stay here." He whipped around from where we were standing and walked back towards the guys. The streets were darker than any other night, so I didn't see what had happened and all I had heard in the beginning was Connor saying, "What the hell?!" They continued talking and I became worried, I even considered going back to attempt to find Connor. My worries were set aside immediately after Connor came back, turning me around, putting his arm over my shoulders again, continuing our walk back to his car as if nothing had happened. I kept asking him what happened but he always refused to say. When we were almost home Connor told me, "All you need to know is that there was an issue and now there isn't."