Best Friend or Boyfriend

:Aiko:

Damn it Aiko. You idiot. He is your best friend for God sakes. Why did you have to go and fall in love with him.

I didn't want to admit it but back there what went down between Kiba and I...It proved their was no longer any way to deny it.

*Flashback*

"It was a big ass spider." I pouted.

He just laughed at me. "It still pretty small though." He shook his head slowly.

"Jerk." I said hitting him the arm.

He just smirked at me. I look at his lips for a few seconds before looking anywhere but at him. I hated how badly I wanted to kiss him. "Aiko? You okay?" He asked.

"No. But I don't want to talk about it." I said still looking anywhere but at him.

"Aiko..." He said in an almost whisper. I still didn't look at him. "Aiko, please what's wrong." He placed his hands on my shoulders.

I finally looked at him. My eyes were probably giving away every emotion I WAS feeling.. "I. Don't. Want. To. Talk. About. It." I said trying to sound assertive. I looked away soon after once again. I became suddenly hyper aware of everything about him.

"Aiko...Your worrying me...You can tell me anything... I'm your best friend after all." He placed his hands on either side of my face and he made me look at him.

"That the problem." I whispered.

"What?" He said scared,confused, and hurt all in one? What was that about? "What does that even mean?" He tried to search my eyes for a hint of what is was talking about. But I made sure to hide it from him the best I could.

I placed my hands onto of his which were still on both sides of my face. I closed my eyes and leaned into his touch slightly enjoying it for a brief second. I will probably never get this again.

I opened my eyes and this time they were beginning to fill with tears. "Please don't make me talk about it." I pleaded before taking hos hands off my face. I turned and walked away. He didn't follow. I was thankful for that.

*End Flashback*

I had to figure things out. I couldn't tell him. The feelings were one sided. Right?

This prompted me to think back to all the lingering looks, unneeded smiles, days when he is jittery and almost nervous like, and other things. Wait could he? Actually...Feel the same.

Preposterous. I said positively to myself. He is my best friend not my or never will be my boyfriend.

Stupid feeling. Stupid Kiba. It's not his fault but still if he wasn't so good looking inside and out I wouldn't be in this situation.

Why did he have to be so kind and strong. He would do almost anything for his friends with a few exceptions. He would do anything to protect his village.

Then their is his relationship with Akamaru that make him ten times more attractive to me. I'm not sure as to why this is true.

God I'm such an idiot. I can possibly ruin the best thing to never happen to me. My best friend since forever. God I'm so stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

I sat against a tree and brought my knees to my chest and held them there. I laid my head down on m!y knees and just let my walls break. I cried harder than I think I have ever cried.

I heard someone drop out of a near by tree. I just ignored them not wanting to deal with anybody right now.

"Aiko." I knew that voice and it was a voice I actually didn't mind hearing.

Besides Kiba and Daddy he was the only other person I was super close to. Well in the leaf village that his. Gara is the only other person I am Super close to.

"Shikamaru." I sob getting up and walking over to him slowly. "I...I think I messed up." I new wave of tears came.

Shikamaru pulled me into a hug. I gladly wrapped my arms around his waist and cried onto his chest. He wrapped his arms protectively and comforting around me and related his chin on my head.

Damn my shortness. I giggled slightly at my statement.

"What's so funny?" He asked.

"I'm so short." I breathed laughing again slightly.

"True that." I could hear the grin in his voice.

Though I was no longer crying I didn't let go and neither did he. I enjoyed the feeling of comfort I was feeling.

"Everything is going to be all okay." He whispered to me.