Forever In My Dreams (On Hold)

Chapter 15

~At Lunch~

(Miranda’s POV)

After third period was finally over, I made my way out to the courtyard so I could snag, Dessen and I, a table. I had just sat down when I heard someone sit down across from me. I instantly knew who it was.

“Hey babe.” Dessen murmured as he dropped his books on the table and tried to get comfortable on the ridiculously uncomfortable benches. I silently wished him luck.

I had just taken my sandwich out and unwrapped it when he snagged one of the halves and took a huge bite. “Dessen, would you like half of my sandwich?” I asked sarcastically. He just laughed and took another bite.

We were silent for the next ten minutes and it was almost to the point of being awkward when he said three little words that left me shocked.

“Runaway with me.”

I just stared at him, wondering if he was serious. He said nothing more, and I knew he was serious.

“What?” I asked, sounding breathless. Runway with him? What the hell?

“Runaway. With. Me.” he said again, except slower like I was some kind of huffy child refusing to listen to their parents.

I felt my eyes narrow. “I heard what you said, Dessen. I was just simply wondering if you’ve lost your freaking mind. Runaway with you? That’s INSANE!” And slightly romantic, but I refused to say that out loud.

“It would be for your own safety.” he stated calmly. I felt my excitement deflate.

“Oh so its not even for romantic purposes. Were not sneaking away and hitting the road and making love every chance we get, we’re running away from three meatheads who can’t keep their disgusting paws to themselves! Well let me tell you something Dessen–“

“Making love every chance we get?” he repeated, and instantly felt my cheeks flame. When I said nothing, he grinned.

“So if we were running away because were in love, like in some romance novel, instead of for safety reasons... you’d be okay with it? Sneaking away, hitting the road, and making love every chance we get?”

I knew he was just teasing me, but I could feel my cheeks getting redder and redder. How could I say something like that? I’m still a virgin for God’s sake. I quickly grabbed my bag, keeping my head ducked so he couldn’t see my ridiculous blushing, and said “Excuse me.”

I quickly started walking away, hoping he would just let me go, when I felt a firm hand grab my upper arm and swing me around.

His eyes were unreadable at first, but after taking in my expression and my red cheeks he said “Are you embarrassed?” he sounded completely shocked.

“I... um... no?” I asked, looking at my feet.

“Sure, okay. Why are you embarrassed?” He really didn’t know? That made me feel even more stupid.

“I... well. Um...” Now I can’t even form a coherent sentence? Lovely.

“Spit it out, Miranda.” I could hear the amusement in his voice.

“Well you know I talk too much and then I go and say stupid stuff like the ‘making love every chance we get’ comment because that was just a stupid thing to say and completely unnecessary I mean seriously I can’t believe I even said that... like assuming you even wanna do that because im sure you probably don’t and it was just stupid and the whole thing is just stupid and im going to shut up now.” I let out a huge breath after my little monologue. I had said it so fast that it sounded like one big huge run on sentence.

I studied my shoes extensively. I just couldn’t look at him right now, God, I’m stupid.

“You...” he started and I winced. I didn’t want to talk about it anymore. “You think I don’t wanna do that?”

“Do what?” I asked, still avoiding his gaze.

“Make love every chance we get?”

“No, I don’t think you wanna do that.”

“What? Why?”

“I’m not even worth the effort.” I murmured absently, quoting what he had said to Tommy and his posse.

I know he had apologized for that... but he said those words so convincingly, how could they not be true? I knew it was kind of mean to throw it back in his face like that... but what he said made me lose all confidence in our relationship. Yeah, its pathetic, I know. I felt his hold on my arms tighten, and then disappear all together. I finally looked up, and he had taken a few steps back.

So it was true.

“Don’t worry about protecting me, I can take care of myself. I proved that the other day.” I said absently.

“Why do you keep doing this?” he gestured with his hands “Why do you keep pushing me away?”

“I push everyone away, don’t take it personally.” I murmured. It was true, I hadn’t meant it sarcastically.

“I take it very personally. Wanna know why, Miranda? Because I love you. I care about you. I wanna be with you, but you keep pushing me away. I know you push everyone away, but im not everyone.” He lowered his voice. “I’m your mate. You’re my everything. You’re mine forever and the sooner you accept that and realize that im absolutely out of my mind crazy in love with you, the sooner we can move pass this issue of your lack of confidence in me.”

I gaped at this. “What the hell am I supposed to think Dessen? You stood there and let those guys paw at me, for what? My protection? If you love me so much, and want to protect me, then rip their throats out or something!”

My eyes widened when I realized what I’d said.

“You’re already starting to sound like an Alpha Female and we haven’t even physically mated yet.” he said, trying to suppress a grin.

“Shut up.” I mumbled. 

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