Let's Fanboy/ Zayn Malik

Chapter 9

Deddicated to- Vanz_OneD , GopsWatty_4 and swathygops. ^_^

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"Someone like you,
on a day to play around.
Love how you're letting all your lies
love me more than you ever did

on a day to play around.
Love how you're letting all your lies
love me more than you ever did."

Well, Lilac is conducting her own concert in my room and basically, I had to sit there and listen. I'm not complaining, I love her voice. But, after a while I got bored so, I put on my earphones. I closed my eyes while I listened to the music and when I finally opened them, I was greeted by a furious looking Lilac who went on babbling about how I'm not a good friend because I couldn't even be the judge for her, that's the least I could do. I'm done with apologizing, so I just stood there with a straight face.

It was a Saturday; I asked her if she would hang out with me. She was more than happy when she agreed to join me. I guess she was in the same boat as me- long weekend and no plans. We meet each other often now, I feel like I have always been like this. When in reality, I used to be one of those people who assume that they would make it through the world without wanting someone to be behind you, just in case you do something that seems like it could do you good but, you end up regretting that later. I didn't think that a day would come when I would be ready to admit that I need someone. I have always craved for a friend, someone who could love me with all my flaws but, it seemed like there was nobody out there for me. I had gotten myself hurt too many times. So, I promised myself to not to let anyone in. But, when Lilac came along, it just flipped upside-down for me. It's hard to find the old soul who once lived in me because it seems like I never was that person who didn't want to admit that he has feelings. I had been holding on for too long.

Anyway, Lilac has finished her concert and now she's ordering me to get back to our project "Yeah, whatever."-I snapped at her. She might be really annoying at times but, there's no one around who is better than her. I love it when she is with me; everything just suddenly looks more colorful and things start to make sense. Miss Hudson has made a lot of changes in my life; they were all for good. I'm surprised because why somebody as bright as her would even bother to be friends with a dork-ish person like me? She saw something in me that I didn't, I guess. "Whoa, this boy sure does have some talent!"-Lilac gasped looking at the collection of paintings I had made. I love painting, it feels like it's running through my veins and giving me life. I have always been passionate about art. I would love to make it into my full-time thing but, my family would want me to take a profession where I earn fat loads of money. But, I'm lucky that they love me enough to not to pressure me into anything. I never display my paintings anywhere; Lilac is one of the very few people who know that I paint. I like it the way it is. I've never been a fan of flaunting what I got unless it's required. Lilac and I spent a lot of time together listening to music, reading and studying too. I feel like a busy person; like I have something to look forward to.

Liam called me and asked why I wasn't at the football game yet. I think I heard somebody murmuring that they're better off without me. It was Louis, probably. I rolled my eyes and told them that I couldn't come today. Guess what Liam did? He showed up at my house in the next hour. Uninvited. I don't want to be rude but, I sure as hell wasn't expecting him to come to my house today. What's worse is the fact that after greeting me, he went straight to Lilac as if he came to meet her not me. Then they paired up and she started getting all giggly while he cracked his stupid jokes. Why does this always happen to me? Why? Why am I always the third-wheel? I don't like it. I decided that I'm going to interrupt them and make a point. Clearing my throat or coughing- nothing seemed to catch their attention. They were way too engrossed in their conversation I had no clue about. They were visibly flirting and that's when I lost it. "Okay, that's it."-I yelled as they looked at me with surprise. "I guess both of you came here to talk to me. I can't take this you know, you two just gang up and I feel isolated just like I always do."-I ranted. "No, Zayn. We're just discussing something important..."-Liam tried to explain. "Yeah, that's why you're using your cheeky pick-up lines and she's blushing."-I accused. What has gotten into me? "Zayn, stop. It's not like that. It's just that I enjoy talking to him."-Lilac spoke in a low tone. "And what am I? Bad at talking?"- I really didn't care now, it all just came out. "I didn't mean it like that. With you, it's different."-Lilac said. Yeah, I'm different.

"C'mon Zayn. Why are so angry about this. Calm down, man."-Liam rubbed a hand over my shoulder. "I have created enough trouble. I should go. I'm sorry about whatever made you feel bad, Zayn."-Lilac left the room. "Sorry, I just wasn't thinking."-I apologized when I realized that there wasn't much that was his fault. It was me who blew things out of proportion. I guess I'm the wrong on here, who's getting jealous over nothing. "I understand, everybody has their moments. Bye, buddy."-Liam hugged me before leaving.

I'm not sure what got me so worked up that moment. I mean, I'm not the kind of person who gets jealous. Why did I get jealous? It's not like somebody belongs to me. My feelings are too messed up to make sense right now. Sleeping it off seemed like a better idea.

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