Let's Fanboy/ Zayn Malik

Chapter 7

I have a lot on my plate or at least I think I do. Ever since I started going out with the boys, I realized that I had to make time for a lot of things: studies, Lilac, my fandom, the boys and my family. I am not used to doing so much since all I ever had to do was study and obsess over Melanie Ryan but, now things have changed. I'm starting to make friends and I'm not that old, awkward Zayn anymore. I still have a long way to go before I'm considered to be a part of the "normal people". I actually don't care about it but, since all I ever wanted was acceptance, I'll have to admit I have always longed for the days when I'll have friends to laugh with and just be 'normal' like everyone else. Everyone used to treat me like an outcast since I kept to myself and I too didn't make an effort to make them think otherwise. Now, I'm coming out my shell, There's more to life than just Melanie, Zayn. But, then again, my life revolves around her. I really mean it; I need her music like I need oxygen. I tend to confuse myself at times. So basically, I have four real friends I can count on: Lilac, Liam, Harry and Niall (not counting Louis because he has always been a jerk to me).

Lilac was with me for the entire day except a few classes. We talk a lot and we ended up catching the teacher's attention in the Biology class because she told me something and I, unable to control my laughter, snorted real loud. I was embarrassed but, she laughed it off. This why I love her, you can be yourself with her and she won't judge you at all. She is taking my notes home today, to catch up on the work she missed for two days. When it comes to studies, she's really serious and sincere. You can't expect her to go from all giggly and bubbly to all firm-faced and studious but, that's the way she is. You can't never really predict her next move, she's fun and adventurous and also passionate about the thing she loves. She has been a good friend, a supportive one and I'm lucky to have someone like that because I haven't had this feeling of someone supporting me or somebody actually caring about me who's not from my family. It's nice to know that someone has your back. I want to be the one who makes her feel the same way but, I just don't know how to show it. Maybe, I'll learn with time.

"Okay, I'll see you in the evening."-Lilac waves at me as I gather my stuff to go the football practice. "Who's that?"-Liam asks with one of his eyebrows raised as he looks at Lilac up and down. "Lilac, a good friend."- I shrug. "And then you say that you're not good at talking to girls."-Liam teases. I laugh and think if only you knew. "C'mon boy, we have a game to get to."-with that we dashed to the field. Like the other day, I was greeted by Louis again. But, this time in a politer manner. Just when I was thinking of him as a better person, he said-"Look who decided to finally join us!" This boy is never going to be in the "good people" circle of mine because I can barely look at him without wanting to throw a punch or two. "C'mon lads, we have to practice!"- Niall clapped his hands together and started the game. I loved playing it them. At some point in the game I was tempted into telling Louis about how good he was at this but, then I saw his stupid smirk and dropped the idea. In the end, we rolled on the ground, not caring about getting dirt on our clothes because this is the moment when you enjoy and feel free. This was the first time I felt like this and I wished for moments like these.

"Today was really great. All of us are doing a great job."-Harry announced as he dusted his shorts after getting up from the ground. "I agree."- Louis smiled and for the first time, it felt like a genuine one. I asked Liam to stay at my home for a while before heading to his. He agreed. When the door opened I saw Liam giving me a half-smile. I didn't know what it was supposed to mean until he said-"Looks like you already got a guest there" and I looked inside. Lilac stood there, talking to Doniya but, when she saw me, she waved. "Are you two going to come inside?"- My sister chuckled. When I went inside, Lilac turned to me and said-"I just came here to return your notebook. Thank you. I copied your homework instead of solving it on my own. I hope you don't mind." And then, I heard that heart melting giggle. Damn you girl, I absolutely won't mind if you giggle like that. Liam was watching us from a distance and he flashed me a thumbs up. Dude, I hope you're not thinking we're in love because that is going to be really awkward. We aren't, right?

She moved towards Liam and looked at him. "Hey, I'm Liam." -he stuck his hand out for her to shake. She shook it and introduced herself. I went to the kitchen and got myself a drink and when I came back they looked like they were in a really deep conversation about something important and I shouldn't disturb them. In a few minutes I was like "Hey, I'm here too. Notice me!" But, all I could do is stand there and watch them murmur. C'mon, this is my house, they're my friends and I feel left out. Lilac, can you not see that basically I'm dying to get your attention? She stifled a laugh while talking to Liam. I should be the one making her laugh, not you, Liam. "You got something here; in your hair.-Liam said gesturing to what I think was a piece of paper. Wait, I'm going to get that before you! I stretched my arm and did it before him. "Aha!"-I exclaimed with satisfaction. Lilac looked at me with her eyes wide. Did I just make a fool out of myself because I was jealous of Liam? I don't know, I'm not able to think straight lately. "Zayn, what?"-Liam struggled to find words. "Oh, ha-ha. There was an insect."- I lied and I'm terrible at it. "An insect? Really? Thank God, you got it off my hair. I get paranoid when an insect is near me."-Lilac sighed. I smiled victoriously at Liam who was now looking at me with a really confused expression. "I should really get going. Bye Liam and Zayn."-she picked her bag and left.

"What was that mate?"-Liam enquired. "Nothing, duh."-I shook my head. "Okay, see you tomorrow."-he wasn't satisfied with the reply he got but, he decided to leave it there and I was glad. I have problems with people trying to chat up with someone whom I care about and especially when I'm not included.

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