Unexpected Lovers (On HOLD!)

Chapter 5: I'm fucked.

Ivana P.O.V

I find myself here again. Staring up at the ceiling, but its not the same ceiling. Its different, it's my ceiling, and everything is just perfect. Or at least that's what I'm forcing myself to beleive.

I turn to my side and see a note card along with water and pain killers. The note says

Iva, please take this once you wake up. It'll help. -love Rike.

That's all I needed right now. For the pain to go away. So I open the bottle and force myself to only take two pills, restraining to down the whole bottle and over dose.

I then grab the glass of water and drink back the pills. I finish the whole glass because I then realized how thirsty I actually was.

The pain imidiately goes away, but the memories don't. All I could remember was his blonde hair and his hands. His hands and how they abused me, and his words. His words cut me deeper than I expected.

He only wanted what was beneath me. I'm suprised that I wasn't in pain down there. Who stopped him? What even happened after that?

I don't remember nor do I want to know. I just wanted to forget about that night.

I finally got up because I will not treat myself as a victim because I wasn't. As far as I knew, nothing happened.

I get up and walk over to my bathroom. I face the mirror, and my eyes widen, and begin to fill with tears.

I touch my eye, and my cheek and then I look down at my wrists. They were like the colors of the rainbow, and they were swollen.

I looked as if I were... Ugh.. Stop it Iva dont think about it, I heard a voice in my head say. I was right, and that's what I did.

Before I could cry anymore, I stopped thinking about it, wiped away my stray tears and brushed my teeth, it was a struggle but I did.

Then I turned on the water, undressed and hopped into the shower.

The water warmed me up, and stripped me of any recollection of the night before. It felt so good. That's when I thought about Asher and how good he made me feel the night before.

But I rejected the thought, because it was nothing, we were both drunk and in the heat of the moment.

"It meant nothing", I whispered to myself.

I finally got out of the shower, trying my best to avoid looking back into the mirror.

I tie my hair up into a messy bun. Then I put on my grey sweat pants, my grey sweat shirt, and throw on my sun glasses.

I go down stairs to quickly grab everything that I needed to stay in my room today. Making sure no one was down stairs I go to the fridge to get a gallon of water, and some left over lasagna and chicken from two nights before.

I warm them up and wait for the beep. That was when I heard Riker coming down stairs along with Nash.

Well don't they look pretty cozy, I thought to myself.

I turn my back to them in my best attempt to not meet their gazes, but my attempt was sabotaged when Riker comes up in front of me. I turn my back to him only to meet Nash. I turn to the direction of the microwave as they both watch intensely at the sides of my head, unknowing of what to say next.

The microwave finally beeps, echoing around the house, and ruining the silence that threatened to devour us all. I grab my food out of the microwave and push past them. Before I know it I feel someone grab one of my bruises wrists tightly and I drop my water.

"Ouuuch!," I yell.

"I-I-I'm so sorry Iva. I didn't know," Riker says with pain and sadness in his eyes.

"Its okay," I say forcing a smile.

I grab my water and dash quickly up stairs, and into my room slamming the door shut. I lean back against the door, and slowly slide down, trying my best to keep a steady breath.

I get up and place my items on my table. Then slide under my covers, and turn on the TV.

30 minutes later I hear a knock at my door. I say "come in."

Then in comes my mother peaking her head in first before coming into my room, closing the door slowly.

"Hey honey," she says with a smile that didn't come naturally, though it was still warm and motherly.

"Hey mom." I proceed to sit up, as she comes and sits on the side of my bed.

"Are you okay sweetheart? Riker told me what happened"

"Yes I am. Don't worry, but what was it that he told you exactly?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"Oh. Well, just that you came home unconscious last night, because you fainted. So Nash had brought you home."

"Oh, well yeah I'm fine mom. No need to worry about me," I gave her the fakest smile, but I hope she didn't notice.

She smiles and pulls me in for a hug and asks "um honey?"

"Yeah mom?"

"Why are you wearing sunglasses inside of the house?"

I panick, and hurriedly replied the first thing that came to mind. "uh.. Its really sunny in here?"

"Should I be worried?"

Everything within me wanted to scream yes, but I said "no mom I'm fine," I say chuckling.

She pulled back and said "okay honey."

She gets up from the bed and heads over to the door to leave, but before she does she turns and says " oh yeah I forgot to tell you. The Remsen's and their son Asher is it?"

"Yes..?" I say dragging it out.

"Oh. Well, they're coming over for dinner tonight. Love you bye." She leaves and closes the door.

My heart sinks. I'm fucked.

I throw my head back onto my bed , then I take my pillow and scream into it and just leave it there for while.

How am I going to have dinner looking like this? But I bet it can't get any worse... Can it?