Let Me Love You

Chance

"I can hear you, you know." He laughed. Chelsea's eyes grew wide, but then she calmly smiled. "Move, Rae. I got this." You slowly shuffled away from the door. She opened the door to a smiling Jiyong, and for some reason, your heart started racing. "Hi, I'm Chelsea. I don't know who you are, or why you're here, but it'd be greatly appreciated if you left, as me and my friend are trying to sleep off jet lag." He stared at her, smile gone. "I think its quite obvious why I'm here.." He said, making eye contact with you. "She isn't interested, bud. Kinda weird how you know where we live, do you even know her name? Look, just leave. Go find another girl to mess with, we don't-"

"Chels, let him in." You surprised yourself, oh god, why did you say that? "Uh.. what? Rae, are you sure?" She looked at you questioningly, knowing you had just been terrified of him a few minutes ago. "Y-yes, I'm sure." She nodded. "I'll leave you to it, then." She turned to Jiyong. "Try anything and I swear to God you won't be having children." Chels left the room, leaving Jiyong at the door and you a few feet away. "So.. am I actually aloud in?" He chuckled, making you blush. "Oh, yeah." You walked over to the door, gesturing him to come in, shutting the door behind him.

"Your name is Rae?" He asked, turning to look at you. "I like it, it suits you." You rolled your eyes, sitting on the couch. "May I sit?" You nodded, scooting as far away from him as you could. "How the hell did you find me?" You blurted out. He was shocked by your sudden forwardness, but regained himself quickly. "Easy, I just followed you to your apartment building, then paid the front desk to tell me which one was yours." You were stunned. "How.. how do you even have that kind of money to pay someone so you can find out where I live? Are you like, a drug dealer or something?" You were starting to get scared again, you let a drug dealer in your house. Oh god, Chelsea is going to murder you.. that is, if he doesn't do it first.

"Hang on, what? You really don't know who I am?" He asked, tilting his head. Now it was your turn to be confused. "No, I don't, and quite frankly, I'm a little scared to find out." You replied, standing up and sitting on a smaller couch on the other side of your small living room. He got up as well, sitting right next to you. "Why are you so scared of me?" He whispered, getting closer to your face. You said nothing, turning your head away and looking down at your hands. He slowly put his hand to your face, like he did during your first encounter. He gently turned you to face him. "I'm not going to hurt you. I promise." He closed the space between you and pressed his lips to yours. You were shocked, you barely knew this guy and he was kissing you? You pulled away, and he started pouting. "Was that not okay?" He asked pulling his face away from yours. "I..I barely know you.." You whispered. He brought his face even closer. His lips ghosting over yours as he spoke.

"Then lets get to know each other." Closing the space again, he gently kissed you. After a few moments, you kissed him back, knotting your fingers in his platinum blonde hair. He broke the kiss and slowly kissed down your neck, making your heart race. "Do I make you nervous?" He asked, his face buried in the crook of your neck. You stayed silent, trying to calm yourself down. He pulled away, smiling. "I think you should go." You said, turning your head so you didn't have to look at him. He sighed, standing up. "Can I at least have your number? Please.." He trailed off, shaking his head. "Never mind, I'm sorry." He turned, but before he could walk out, you stopped him.

"Wait. It's too late for you to be walking home, d-do you just want to uh..  stay h-here?" He looked at you expressionless. "You said I should leave, and now you want me to stay?" You were flustered, you didn't know how to respond. "I didn't realize the time, and I know Chelsea will be mad if I just let you walk home alone in the middle of the night and I-" He started laughing. "I'll stay, thank you for allowing me to stay." You nodded, lightly smiling. "I'll get you pillows and blankets." You went into your room, grabbing a pillow and blanket for him. Were you seriously letting him stay the night, after he practically stalked you, then kissed you? But you kissed him back.. "Rae? Are you okay?" You heard his voice, you quickly turned around, seeing him leaning against your door frame, arms crossed. "Um, yeah, I'm great." You plastered on a fake smile, handing him his things. "If I'm not awake when you are in the morning, feel free to eat whatever you like." He leaned in, kissing your cheek. "Thank you so much." He walked back into the living room, leaving you blush-y and smiling. You crawled into bed, finally feeling your eyes droop again. You fell asleep to thoughts of him.

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You were running down a dark alley, you knew he was catching up. You weren't going to make it home, you weren't going to make it out alive. You were going to die, and you were going to die without even living your life. You tripped over your own feet, and silently cursed yourself for being so stupid. You looked up, and the man chasing you had finally caught up. He held his gun to your head, ready to pull the trigger, you opened your mouth to scream, and-

"Rae! Rae, wake up!" Your eyes flew open as you let out an ear piercing scream. Your breathing was heavy, you were dizzy and you felt sick. Chels and Jiyong were both in your room, worried looks on their faces. You started to cry, not knowing what to do. "Chelsea, I can take care of her, its okay. Go back to sleep." Jiyong looked at Chelsea, and she nodded slightly. She gave you a hug, and left the room. Jiyong took your face in his hands, examining you. "Rae, what happened?" You only cried harder. He scooped you into his arms, holding you and trying to calm you down. Slowly but surely, you calmed down. You stopped shaking and your sobs turned to silent tears. He pulled you away from him, looking into your eyes. They were laced with concern and something else, you just didn't know what.

"I'm okay." You mumbled. He sighed, laying you back down. "Okay, I'm going to go lay back down. If you need me come get me, okay?" He pressed a small kiss to your forehead, turning to leave. You caught his wrist with your small hand. "Ji.. will you stay?" You weren't scared of him anymore. All you wanted was him, you wanted him as close to you as possible. Was it possible to feel this attracted to someone you barely know? You knew you'd end up regretting this, but you didn't care. "Please.." You looked up at him. He nodded, slowly climbing into bed behind you. You turned to face him, your faces inches apart. "Thank you." You snuggled into him, so his head was resting on top of yours, your lips pressed into his neck. You gently pressed a kiss there, and felt his arms wrap around you. You closed your eyes, never wanting to leave this moment.

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Jiyong's P.O.V

How did we end up here? She was so scared of me.. terrified. And now shes wrapped up in my arms? This isn't me. This isn't how I am with girls. Normally its a quick fuck and then I leave. Why was I acting this was with her? Why was I being so gentle? Caring? What the hell is wrong with me? I'm not going to lie, I definitely like this, and I definitely like her. But she doesn't even know who I am. Hey, not a bad thing. Not at all. I just wish I knew why I was trying so hard for her. My drunken days and sleepless nights have led me here, but why? I can't get to know her. I can't risk falling, no way. My demons are too much for her, I can't risk hurting her. I need to leave as soon as she wakes up. I'll tell her coming here was a mistake, that I didn't want her, I didn't want any of this to happen. I'll make up a whole story. Perfect, no chance in either of us falling for each other if that happens.. right?