Poetry

Sorry

Im sorry I have to write this, 
But I'm certain that the next time That you sneak into my thoughts I may just loose it.
And im sorry that no matter what I do or how much I defend it I will never forget you. Because you are the sun and the moon and without them life will never be the same,  because without them the flowers will never grow and the air will leave our lungs and we may just choke. So when you lay in my arms and our eyes connect like puzzle pieces I may have to glance away, only briefly but it's enough,  to stop the burning feeling that may hurt because without your love I will most definitely crack. And Im frightened that I may do something I'll deeply regret and waste my life waiting for the air to finally leave my lungs the old fashioned way . And Frankly I'm god damn  scared,  scared that one day you'll be gone and the flowers will not grow and I'll breathe nothing but poisonous gases that make me choke on all the lies I've ever told you.  So maybe it would be better to speed up the process so the flowers along with my lungs don't suffer in sweet sweet silence, pretending they're okay with the feeling of uncertainty they Have and The feeling of hatred towards the ones they should love the most. Maybe I should just cut it off and leave the world before we affect it anymore.  But I doubt I could do that.  I doubt I could leave you.  Because you and me this is real,  this is what true love is and it scares me and it must scare you but let's be scared together and watch the sun and the moon and remember how they resemble us. Because without one another we serve no purpose. And one day we will look back at this time spent together,  whether we are reminiscing alone or together, and we will know it was the best damn time of our lives. Because this is the real thing and I'm so scared we may just throw it away. So if I choke I'm sorry cause I'm just god damn scared.