Finding my angel, facing my demon

Emily is in the dog house

The next day didn't go much better. I made breakfast but she didn't speak to me except to say 'thank you'. After that she coldly reminded me of a list of chores that needed doing. Pick up dry cleaning, change the oil in both cars, hang new curtains in one of the guest rooms. All the chores were mundane enough but they were time consuming. After I did each thing, Alison would thank me, then remind me of the next thing. After hanging the curtains I headed to our room to talk to her.

"There is nothing else to do." She said bleakly. I was starting to get frustrated.

"Alison, I don't know what you want from me. I said I was sorry. I told you why I did it. I know why you are upset but holy fuck could you give me a break here?" I said, my anger coming out of nowhere. Well not out of nowhere, it had been accumulating.

Alison turned away from me. "Like I said, there is nothing else on the list so you can go do whatever you want to do."

I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her. She fidgeted a bit but I held her tight. "You are what I want to do." I whispered in her ear. I could feel goose bumps cover her body. "I'm sorry, Alison, I really am but I can't fight like this. Let me make it up to you."

She turned her head away from me when I tried to kiss her. I sighed and relinquished my hold on her. I placed a kiss on the back of her neck before leaving the room.

I sat in the backyard while I thought about what had happened. I thought about how something so insignificant had become such a problem. I had hit that woman for her. For Ali. Well, I guess I did it for me too. She had insulted me by insulting Alison so I had hit her. I did understand Alison's point, I wouldn't argue with that. It made sense. Alison was never a fan of violence, even though we spent most of our early years fighting. I understood that she was afraid that I would've gotten hurt, I could've, but I hadn't thought of that. She was right, I had been careless. I stayed in the backyard without moving for only God knows how long. I watched the sun set out of the perfect blue sky and I wished that Alison had been there to share it with me. The colors were magnificent. Purples and reds splayed across the sky in patterns that were mesmerizing. It had been years since I had watched the sun set and as I sat alone I felt like a part of my soul was gone. Having Alison mad at me was like having the sun set out of my heart. Except there were no beautiful colors or sights. There was just pain and regret.

I stayed in the yard by the pool as the sky went from blue to red to purple and finally to black. The sky was decorated by countless stars and a few light grey clouds that moved briskly with the cool ocean breeze that always engulfed the entire city. I must have nodded off on the lounge chair because the next thing I remember was Alison waking me.

"Come inside. It's going to rain and you fell asleep out here." She whispered as she took my hand and helped me up but don't let that fool you, her mood wasn't any better than it had been earlier. I pulled my hand from hers and rested back into the chair.

I'm staying out here." I said childishly. I was, in essence, throwing myself a little pity party, a veritable tantrum, but I had a right to. I had apologized in every way, shape and form possible but she didn't care. So why should she care if I got rained on a bit.

"Em, don't be such a drama queen. Get inside the house before it starts raining." She tried to grab me again but I moved my hand before she could reach it. I wasn't moving until she agreed to forgive me, but I didn't have the nerve to say that to her.

"No, I'm staying out here. It has a better view than an empty house. You won't even look at me." I mumbled. I leaned back and faced the stars once again. Millions of tiny white dots painted the sky in a pattern known only to the divine. I could tell Alison was angry.

"YOU'RE CRAZY!" She yelled at me as it started to rain a bit. I was surprised. The clouds had moved and the sky was inexplicably clear. "We are going to get pneumonia out here. Will you please come inside?"

"Go inside, Ali, I'll be fine." I closed my eyes and let the rain cover my face. Alison stepped back under the patio covering but she didn't go inside. She kept saying that I was crazy and that I had to go inside but the rain felt magical. It was oddly warm and I felt it trickle down my body. I stood from the chair and I laughed when Alison thanked me for coming to my senses.

"I'm not going inside, Ali. I am going swimming." I pulled off my shirt and jeans, I intended to jump into the pool. I was in only a black bra and matching panties in the rain in the middle of my backyard. Alison yelled even louder at me.

"Em, get inside, I'm begging you. Please." Even though she was shouting I could sense her worry. I didn't know why. We had gone out in the rain before. We had used our pool in the back yard during small showers like that. But I acquiesced to her demands. I stomped back into the house, right past her. I stood in the middle of the living room, dripping wet, wearing only a bra and panties. Alison entered the house and started complaining again.

"You are going to catch your death, have you lost your mind. It's freezing in here and you are soaking wet. Come on. Let's get you dried off before you get a fever." She grabbed a blanket from the couch and draped it over me.

"Don't worry about it." I said as I shrugged off the blanket. I headed to the room and tossed off my wet clothing, or what was left of it. I crawled into bed, with my hair still dripping.

"Em, you need to dry yourself off. You're going to get sick, you idiot. You've got to stay warm." She threw a towel at me but I ignored it and closed my eyes, trying to find some peace from the aching in my head. Fighting with Alison had always given me unbelievable headaches. "You're such a baby." She complained as she grabbed the towel and forced the sheets off the bed.

I didn't move. She started to dry my legs and ass before moving to my back and my hair. She spent the most time on my hair trying to make sure it was nice and dry. Then she pulled the wet sheets off of the bed and replaced them. It the pit of my stomach I felt guilty for acting like that. It was childish. I got up from the bed and I stared at my gorgeous girlfriend.

I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that. It was stupid and childish." I walked over to her and hugged her. "I'm sorry for the other stuff too, it was wrong of me. I'll sleep in the guestroom for a while.
Or if you like I can go stay at my folks it ok."

I kissed her head and moved for the door but she caught my arm and pulled me back.

"I'm sorry too. I acted like a bitch. I just love you and I worry about you sometimes." She kissed me softly and I couldn't help but smile. I picked her up off of the bed and she wrapped her legs around me. I was naked but she was wearing her pajamas; boy shorts and a big t-shirt. My hands moved to her ass and I pulled her tight against me.