Beau and I (Sequel to Skip and Beau)

Chapter 23: Secrets

Hi HAPPY SUMMER. almost. ye so im done with school and then i have finals for the next two weeks. so there wont be any updates then sorry. but once summer starts ill be a lot less stressed and maybe update more? aw you guys are so sweet just thought id say that.

*Jai's Point of View* Still Tuesday Afternoon 

"Should I go check on them?" I asked Emma. "They've been up there for an hour since we got home after Parmi brought up all that death stuff..."

"No! What if they're having sex?" She said, laughing to herself. "They're fine."

My brain wandered off. I actually think a lot about the day Luke died all the time. I'm such an idiot for ever saying that shit to him when Sara lost her memory and they dated. "I think I'm gonna see what's going on. I hope he's okay."

"They're fine!" Emma insisted. "You need to stop caring about the past so much. You're not Luke's mother. Or his girlfriend. You can't keep treating him like a baby."

"Since when did you stop giving shits about everyone?" I asked. "No, he's not my mum or girlfriend, he's my twin brother for fuck's sake!"

"I'm just saying that you guys won't always have each other every second of the day and you can't check up on him like a fucking babysitter!"

"He died, Emma!" I shouted. "My older brother of two fucking minutes killed himself because of me and you want me to stop caring about him?! Open your fucking eyes and show a little pity for once, yeah?! Is that too hard for you in your perfect little world?"

"Shut your dirty fucking mouth." She hissed. "You act like I'm heartless!"

"Just when we were in the car you said that you forget about all the bad things so you can cope!" I argued back. "You just ignore the fact that I lost a fucking brother to make yourself feel better?"

Parmiss and Luke ran down the stairs. He grabbed on to my shoulder. "Jai, what's going on?"

Parmi took Em's hands. "I heard a certain word one too many times. Calm down, explain."

"Jai thinks that just because I hate thinking about all the shit that everyone's gone through I'm heartless!"

"No. That's not what I said!" I interrupted. "You don't care about anyone except for yourself. And only sometimes me. Just because I care about my brother doesn't mean I want to check on him when we're fucking 50 years old."

"Can you stop saying 'fuck' please." Parmi said sharply.

"Well excuse me for being real. Parmi, ever since we met you a whole lotta shit has happened." Emma bit back.

"Don't you dare bring her into this." I said.

"Emma, calm down!" Luke said. "What does Parmi have to do with this?"

I saw a fire in my girlfriend's eyes that I'd only ever seen once. When that girl kissed me on TV when Luke and I were the Janoskians. I came back to my senses, I hated seeing her like that. "Emma, please. I hate fighting. Something's wrong."

Tears welled up in her eyes. "You hate me!"

I got away from Luke and ran to her. "Why would I hate you? This is just a stupid fight."

"Stop!" She cried. "I hate this."

"Hate what? Emma, let me understand." I begged. "Listen, did something happen? What's wrong?"

She just nodded and grabbed a tissue, wiping the mascara dripping from her eyelashes. 'You're gonna kill me. Not just me...you're gonna kill everyone."