The Lost Girl

Chapter 10- "Kiss me.Hell just kiss me."

Authors note,
Chose your friends wisely because half of them with fuck you over. I learned that the hard way, sadly.

Chapter 10:
I stared out the window into the pitch black dark focusing on the rain drop I saw, then I realized life was like a rain drop, you'll be in cloud nine, fall, but you'll make it up to the happiness (clouds in this case) eventually. Every thought occupied my mind as I saw the rain pick up, rain was relaxing to watch and it helped me to relieve stress. What did Daniel mean to not trust Austin? Those thoughts made my mind twist and turn in every direction so I simply dismissed the thought. I went to the other room and grabbed my phone.

To Daniel: Please just let me stay here, I need time to think before I go back to them.

I set down my phone pleased with my message to him, hoping he'd give up and go home because I really did need to think things out. But not only about my parents, about Daniel too.

"Austin." I said in a faint voice. But I knew he didn't hear me, I don't know why I wanted him but I did. I put my head on my knees and cried. I fucked everything up between my parents and Daniel. The 3 only people I had in my life I pushed away and never let them have the respect or appreciation that they deserved, the took me in without a doubt and let me become part of them family. They felt pity for me and my past and that's why they accepted me, that's why Daniel accepted me. My phone buzzed with a vibration and I went to see what this notification was

From Daniel: Okay, but when you come back we need to talk. I hate the fact that you hate me.

To Daniel: I don't hate you, but your parents hate me so I'm not exactly welcome back.

From Daniel: Eh they'll get over it, the minute you left they felt bad for mentioning it.

To Daniel: I don't need pity. I want to show them that I do appreciate them and that I never meant to disturb their life.

From Daniel: Then come do it Beth. You can't live life in fear, I'll pick you up and we could talk to them together.

To Daniel: Maybe tomorrow. I'm going to crash at Austin's.

From Daniel: Goodnight Beth.

To Daniel: Goodnight :)

I set down my phone and headed to find Austin, wiping away my tears as I made it to his room. I knocked and sure enough the dork was playing video games, I said goodnight to Austin trying to not interrupt his game, he sent me a simple wave and was back focused on his game. When Daniel said it wasn't safe here what did he mean? I mean surely he would have got me if I was in real danger, right?I brushed that thought off, allowing myself to rest until I felt someone sit by my side. I opened eye before I realized it was Austin.

I groaned, "Ugh what do you want."

He smiled before laughing a little, "I want to watch a movie, with you."

"Better be Harry damn Potter than." Damn did I love Harry Potter. That was my movie. Ever since I left my dad I'd been hocked on Harry Potter, I was on the 3 rd book already and I started the book series 2 weeks ago. I heard Austin say something but was in my Harry Potter daydream so Austin's words went through one ear and out the other. He spoke again, "Earth to Beth.Can we not watch Harry Potter." I snapped out of my dazed and replied with a simple nod, apparently not everyone lives Harry Potter.

He turned on "The Duff" and I stared at him in shock, "You like this movie?"

He glared at me and in a mocking tone said, "You like Harry Potter.

I mumbled, "At least Harry Potter isn't a horrid movie."

His jaw dropped, "How dare you call my movie horrid! Let's just watch something else then babe."

I blushed a little bit instantly covering my face. "Fine, pick any movie other than that."

We ended up watching "The Fault in Our Stars", yes I convinced him to watch that. Also yes I cried in the middle of it. I said,"Get the tissues I repeat get the tissues!" He got up and came back with 3 tissue boxes, he laughed while I gave him a deathly glare. We watched the movie for another 40 minutes until I was interrupted by Austin.

I said still looking at the screen, "It better be damn important or your dead to me." When he didn't answer I looked his direction, he brought a tissue to my face and wiped away some mascara that had been running down my face. Just like out of a romance movie. I looked at his eyes, I never noticed how amazing they were.

Kiss me. Hell just kiss me.

I know I sound desperate but when your that close to a hot guy watching a romantic movie you would be too. His lips seemed like that missing puzzle piece and my lips were the entire puzzle, like we'd fit perfectly. I could feel his steady breath against my neck, please just please kiss me. We moved closer together to the point where our noses were touching and I was screaming in my head for him to kiss me.

Kiss me you hella hot creature!

Our lips joined together the moment Gus told Hazel he had cancer, I wanted to cry internally but I focused on Austin in that moment and my feelings.

No sparks. No moment everyone talks about. No anything.

In that moment I realized it wasn't love it was just pure lust for him.

My heart broke. I just kissed him and I didn't even love him, what if he liked me? I couldn't break him.

In a worried voice he said, "Beth are you okay?" I realized who I really loved, but it wasn't Austin.

I lied, for his sakes, " I just need rest that's all." I pulled the blanket over my face and pretended to not hear him. Eventually he got up and said in a soft voice," Goodnight Beth." I let out a sigh and just wanted him there. By him I think you know who I mean. I needed Daniel.

I had huge writers block but I like how this ended.Anyways I may be updating sometime this week hopefully.

I hope you all have a fabulous day/week. ❤️