The Lost Girl

Chapter 11- "I love you so much it hurts"

Authors note real quick. I have no idea where this chapter is going but let's just see 😂 this shall be interesting.
But happy (belated) Thanksgiving 🦃 I was going to publish this on Thanksgiving but I had writers block as usual & not to mention work.

Chapter 11
I was as lost as my feelings. My feelings led me to this place, Daniel's place to be exact. I needed to see him because my heart just wouldn't stop loving him, no matter how much I wanted to hate him, I would always love him. My hand was shaking in that moment when I ringed the doorbell. The moment I did I instantly wished no one was home so I didn't have to see him. But I so desperately wanted to see him. My heart and my feelings just weren't working today because I couldn't decide how to feel about this situation. The door opened revealing a shirtless Daniel, why did God decide to make him shirtless just why?

"Hey." I was a mess, or at least my voice was. My mumbled voice caught the attention of Daniel.

"Come on we have to talk, Beth." He led me to his room and hurt filled my heart, this could not be good. His serious tone convinced me that it wasn't going to be good news.

He began to speak, "So how'd the night go with Austin?", regret of asking the question filling his face.

"It was fine I guess." I thought of the kiss and instantly felt guilty.

"So what happened last night." Removing all eye contact with me. This was getting awkward.

"We watched a movie, talked..." And I paused not sure if I should mention the kiss, but I mentioned it because I didn't want to feel guilty. "Then we kissed."

He let his figure fall on his bed and left an awkward silence between us, again. He mumbled, "So are you guys dating now?"

I fumbled to find my words before I could answer,"Um n-o....I-I don't like him like that. I regretted it the minute it happened, because I realized I didn't want him." I just realized that I emphasized the word him and my heart started pounding. I was a total idiot.

He got up and started to leave his room, "Oh cool." He said uninterested.

I grabbed his arm and looked him in the eyes, but he refused to make contact with me. "Daniel please just look me in the eyes. I just want to talk!"

"Talk about what? How he stole your first kiss? About how he didn't fucking deserve to get your first kiss?" He spat yanking his arm out of my grip.

In complete anger I said something I should have never said, "like YOU deserved it. Apparently our first kiss never meant a damn thing to you if you can't even remember it. Because it meant a damn lot to me!" Tears started to form in my eyes but I continued. "You know why I didn't fucking kiss Austin more? Because I realized I didn't love him. I loved YOU this whole time, but I was just another girl to you."

I went to my room unable to say any more and locked the door behind me. Why was love so complicated? I took a deep breath and started crying because I couldn't hold the tears back anymore. I loved him but he thought of me as just another girl. I heard knocks at my door followed by the constant voice of Daniel calling me to let him in. Why was love so complicated? Love was always so perfect in the movies, so why couldn't love be like that in reality.

No sneaking out. No disappointment. No ignoring my parents. No hating him. Just no thinking about him. But trying not to think about him would be too much like a movie and this was reality.

I got up from my bed wiping sadness off my face as I opened my door to find Daniel's door shut. Without a knock I entered his room to see him laying on his bed face down, and his face was covered in a pillow.

"Daniel." When he heard my voice his head jumped up and he looked at me, his eyes were puffy and red.

"I love you so much it hurts." His faced returned to the pillow instantly after he said that. Geez this boy knew how to fuck with my emotions. I walked over to his bed carefully sitting next to him on his bed and wrapped my arms around him.

"Can we just be back to normal?" I mumbled into his t-shirt.

"What do you mean by normal?" At this point he had flipped over so his face was no longer buried in his pillow.

"Back to normal. Back to when we played with nerf guns and you wanted to kiss me as your prize. Back to when you saved me from my nightmare or when you got jealous that I was with someone else. Back to when I thought you liked me. Back to when we almost got caught for kissing in the hall and you made up some bullshit excuse. Back to us." After all those memories we shared I put my head down on his shoulder and continued, "Back to when you thought I was asleep and you told me you loved me."

"Don't use past tense, use present tense, because I still love you." He said then he paused, "Beth."

"Daniel."

"Date me."

"What?" I said looking him in the eyes with shock. What the hell did he just say?

"Date me. Be my girlfriend. No more hoes around, just you and me."

"Well isn't that a hell of a way to ask me out?" I said with sarcasm coating my voice.

"Don't worry Beth I'll ask you out officially when I get a chance, and when I figure out a kick ass way to do it."

"So then if I said yes right now what would we be?"

"Unofficial."

"But you'd still be my boyfriend?"

"Yes."

"Then I say yes, my unofficial boyfriend."

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BECAUSE I LOVE THIS ENDING

Anyways it's 1 am right now and I'm tired so we're making this authors note short-ish.

Do you ship Beth & Daniel?
Because the ship is sailing 😏 (or is it)

Goodnight wonderful people 💗