Storm (interracial)

Ascend Chapter 14

"No, this can't be happening." I say to Anna Clara frantically.

"Calm down child everything will be okay."

"He can never find out." Promise me you won't tell him."

"Hush child your not thinking rationally right now."

"PROMISE ME." I yell frightening Anna Clara.

"Your going to stress the baby. You need to settle down."

"FUCKING PROMISE ME ANNA CLARA.

"Yes child I promise. Now come and sit. You must take it easy."

"Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God, oh my God. What will I do. He doesn't even want me. If he can't love me then how can he love this baby I'm carrying. I wanted my kids if I ever had any to have better than me. I can't, I just can't." I cried hysterically.

"Here take these." Anna Clara says while handing me some pills. Don't t worry they are safe to take. It won't hurt the baby." I gobble the pills up.

That conversation happen three days ago. I'm depressed, hungry, sick all at the same time. I feel like crap. Between the morning sickness and my longing for Arian I can't deal. I spend most of the in bed feeling sorry for myself. I just wished he could try and be with me. I know he cares why'd he just have to push it all away. Now I'm pregnant, alone and scared to death. I haven't spoken to anyone since my last talk with Anna Clara. The only reason I eat is because I'm pregnant, otherwise I would probably starve.

Anna Clara walks in. I turn my body away from her. I can't bear for anyone to see me like this. Really I just don't want to be bothered. I hear her talking to me but she just sounds like the woman from Peanuts. And when she's finished talking she walks out and closes the door. I feel the urge to vomit so I stick my head out of the bed and puke in the pan that lays on a stand next to my bed.

More days pass by. I don't know how many days have gone by because I haven't left the room at all. I know that I'm hurting my baby but I can't bring myself to get up. I've thrown up more than I was eating. At one point I was throwing up air. Now I being feed through a tube since I've lost my appetite. I can think of nothing but him. I even hear him telling me if I'm really going to kill our baby. Telling me to get the fuck out of that damn bed. I'm really losing it cause I'm hallucinating now. It's like his voice is here in this room. I start to cry.

"What the fuck is wrong with you. Get the fuck out of this bed. If you harm our baby I will kill you myself. Now get the fuck up."

I turn my head towards the voice. It's him. No I can't be. I've officially lost it. I stare at the vision. It starts walking towards me. I began to feel nauseous. I turn over and throw pick in my pan. When I finish I feel hand yank me from the bed. I come face to face with my worst nightmare.

"Look at you. Do you not even care."

I realize I haven't gone crazy yet and it is indeed him. I can only stare at him. Why is he here. Anna Clara. She is the only one who would tell him.

"Where you not going to tell me. You know what if you want to give up fine but the child your carrying which is mine. You will give he or she a chance. Your that selfish that you would hurt our baby."

I silently cry.

"Oh don't cry now cause I will give you something to cry about. You let me a man break you so badly that you can give two fuck about the life your carrying. Believe me the next six and a half months that you carry this baby I will be doing everything in my power to have them with me. If you weren't pregnant I'd kill you right now. I just might after you give birth. I can't believe I actually fucking cared for you, fucking loved you. But, bitch I swear on everything if you kill my baby I will torture you the rest of your days here on earth."