The Fanfiction Writer (Completed)

Chapter Nineteen: Platypus

Chapter Nineteen: Platypus

*Lilah's POV*

I tell myself that I don't want to hate Lena or Jared or anyone else in the world. I can't help but feel this kind of longing to be Lena right now. She has everyone's attention. Every single one of the boys, including Jared who's beyond gay, is completely lost in Lena World. It kind of diminishes my self-confidence in myself. I feel incomparable to her. 

"Thank you so much," Lena says from the stage. She brings a hand to cover her eyes so that she can see out into the audience. When she raises her hand, her already short and revealing shirt rises up, showing more of her body beneath it. I roll my eyes and cross my arms in misery as the boys whisper amongst themselves at how hot she is. 

"I think she should get the part," Harry whispers immediately.

"Agreed."

"Hell yes, she is drop dead gorgeous," Louis adds in. Harry and he slap hands. I'm only glad that they're whispering quietly enough that Lena can't hear them. 

"Do we have any more auditions?" Zayn asks. His eyes meet mine briefly and my stomach flutters. He's kept his mouth shut about how attractive Lena is. That's got to be some kind of sign. 

"Not that I know of. Plus, don't you think she basically nailed the audition?" Harry asks. His mind is definitely set on having Lena play the lead role. 

I want to disappear into the red cushioned seat. They act like I'm not even in the same hearing area as them. I start thinking up appropriate ways to sneak off without them finding out. I don't really have enough patience to sit beside them quietly as they debate Lena's attraction scale. I'm just about to slip out of my seat when Thomas grabs my arm suddenly. 

"Hold on, we still have one more audition. Lilah still has to show us what she's got," Thomas says and I feel all the color drain from my face. Whatever confidence I had had about auditioning is completely gone. 

"You're auditioning?" Zayn asks incredulously as if he can't imagine I'd want any part in the whole acting business. 

I feel my offense side start up. "Why not?" I ask back. I take my arm away from Thomas and stand up confidently. "I might as well right? It doesn't hurt to try," I mutter. My eyes meet Jared's and he winks at me. It's him telling me to blow them away. I intend to do so. 

"Well alright then. Good luck," Louis says to me. His voice lacks confidence in me and I feel a little more than annoyed. It's like they believe in Lena's acting more than mine. It drives me crazy because she isn't even an actress. She doesn't act at all. 

"Thanks," I say and start heading towards the stage. "You've got this. I've got this," I reassure myself as I walk up the couple of stairs off to the side of the stage. I head towards center stage, the lights suddenly feeling way too hot and bright. 

"Please state your name and what you'll be doing," Thomas calls out from the crowd. Are they farther back than I thought? Do I have to talk louder than normal? 

My heart is suddenly beating at a quicker pace. These lights are way too hot and bright. I need them to turn them down. 

"Delilah?" Jared yells out, snapping me out of my sudden stage fright. 

I've got to pull through this. I've got to show them what I am capable of. I shut my eyes for a brief second and focus on breathing. When I open my eyes, I am ready.

"My name is Delilah McKinley and I will be auditioning with Metamorphosis from Dog Sees God," I say in a clear voice. I make sure to project to the back of the room. I keep my chin up and I start my monologue. "Metamorphosis."