Mixed Emotions

Chpt 4

I told Remy I wanted to go to the park.

 Maybe it'll help clear my mind.

I honestly don't know what to think.

I don't know how to feel.

I need to get out of this car.

I'm gonna suffocate in here!

"Remy, how far away are we?"

"Parks' just down the street."

"Okay, just please hurry. I really need some air."

"We'll get there in a minute"

How the hell do you calm down in a situation like this??

I just witnessed someone's death.

We finally pulled up at the park.

Thank God!

I really need to breath.

I'm trying to calm down but I can't!

Crouching on the ground in the middle of public isn't the best idea.

But fuck it, I'm panicking.

When I saw that man there..

He was so afraid.

Like I am now.

I can still see his crying face..

Mm, this is not good for me.

I've got to cool it.

The smell of freshly cut-grass is fills my nose.

I crouch, face between my knees and my hands behind my head.

I can't help but release my tears

I can't help but to cry.

I'm so scared.

I'm so fucking scared.

"Koda, listen. You gotta get up! People are going to get the wrong idea. Come on."

Remy's right. I'm being foolish.

Look at me. I'm embarrassing myself.

"Hey, don't you go cryin' on me, alright? Come on, I gottcha."

???: Excuse me? Is he alright?"

"He's just fine miss. A relative of his died is all."

???: Oh my goodness. I am so sorry to hear. You poor soul.

Remy held me in his arms and helped me up to my feet.

I feel a sort of strange comfort when he did.