Beside You~ Ashton Irwin (Sequel of I Miss You)

5.) Are You Kidding Me?

Ashton's P.O.V

"Are you seriously telling me no?" I asked, anger evident in my voice.

"Yes Ashton, I am. I can't allow Allie and Lucas to come on tour. If I allow that, then I have to allow the others to bring someone if they want and there isn't enough room for that." Jenny, one of our team members said to me.

"That's ridiculous. All the boys would love Allie and my kids to come along. You can't possibly tell me that I can't have them along. What if Allie were to go into labor while I was gone? What about all the important stuff I missed the first time around? I promised I wouldn't do that this time." I snapped at her, and she looked surprised.

"Well you should have thought of that before you chose this career then Ashton. You're gonna miss stuff, but you're traveling the world making so many other people happy. Don't you love that?" Jenny asked me.

I do. I love the fans, but is it really worth it?

I already missed a lot of Lucas's firsts. I don't wanna do that all over again. My kids mean more to me than anything. They are my everything. If something were to happen to them,  I would probably kill myself just to be with them again. Especially if it was my fault.

I barely got another chance at this. If I wouldn't have come back when I did, who knows if Allie would have ever told me that I was Lucas's father? I might have never known I had a child.

I looked at Jenny, and she was looking back at me. I shook my head at her and turned around to walk away from her. Still shaking my head I got to the door of her apartment that she shared with our tour manager, since they are dating, and I spun around to look at her.

"Tell the boys to find a new drummer. I love the fans, and I love my life. But I love my kids more than that. They need me, much more than you do." I said, happy with myself for doing this.

I walked out the door, and down to my car that was parked out front. I climbed in the front seat and started the engine. Before pulling out to drive home, I thought about the events that just occurred, but I also thought about my future.

I can imagine how perfect it is.

Allie and I living in an amazing house with our two kids running around and playing in the yard. I'll have the biggest smile on my face, knowing I made the right choice. Lucas, and my other son or daughter are gonna be my world now.

They should have been from the start, and I will hate myself everyday for letting Lucas go the first, almost whole year of his life now knowing who I was.

I won't let anyone or anything ruin it this time.

I took out my phone and sent a text to Luke, that I am probably gonna get hell for later.

To Luke: Hey Luke. Sorry to say this, but you and the other boys can find a replacement drummer. I just told Jenny that I quit.

This may destroy my friendship with the boys, but it may help us in the long run. I guess we will see how this all is in a few years.