Diary of a Broken Girl

June 7, 2013

June 7, 2013

Today was finally the last day of school! I had to say good-bye to my favorite teacher. He's not coming back next year... And I didn't have a chance to hug some of my other friends, sadly. But I did get to go downtown afterwards. I hoped to God that I would and would not see that one boy.  My heart was twisting again.

It was a while before I saw him, thankfully. Someone came and asked if we broke up. I wish I had told them it was none of their business. But of course I didn't. I said no. She told me that he wouldn't tell her when she asked. Why can't people mind their own business!  She didn't even have any sympathy!

I had fun going to stores and such downtown. I fancied this one guy a bit, but not enough to get over my ex...Wow. He's my ex...I've never called him that. And I never thought I would. I miss him so...

Later, we went to this store that sells frozen yogurt. I saw him. My heart stopped and I took a huge gulp and muttered to my friend. She said we'd leave right after buying some frozen yogurt. And I heard the girl sitting next to him call my name. I ignored her. She was one of the problems in our relationship and he was sitting with her, still. And I'm not sure if he looked at me at all but I know my heart was sinking. I'm pretty sure he purposely moved so I couldn't see him.

After we left, I had that feeling like I was going to throw up again. The same feeling I got after I had apologized to him earlier this week...He seems happy without me...He doesn't need me...

I watched Anastasia tonight as well and also cried and thought of him. I don't know why though. I thought maybe I wasn't feeling as badly but then it hit...And while I watched the movie, I was talking to a couple of friends...Every time they'd text me, I wanted it to be him. I just want him to text me again. Why couldn't we work things out?

I'm so depressed. But thank God it's summer.