Well I thought things were going well. I haven't been thinking about him as much as I used to. But I dreamed about him last night again. It was really weird and I'm just so frustrated by it.
I was in the hallway at school and I was waiting outside the geometry room. He came over and hugged me tightly. I wasn't hugging back so my arms were against his chest. He was warm and I could feel his heart beating. And after he let go, he did something strange. He took off his shirt (he had another one underneath oddly enough) and put his shirt on me. It was a dark grey or black and smelled exactly like him. He told me that he wanted me to keep it.
After this, he walked me over to the staircase and had his arm around me. We walked down and then made our way to the front door where he had to leave because he said his dad was there. So I stood and watched him leave.
I sat down on one of the benches in the hallway and waited for a few minutes. Then I opened the door and left. After exiting, I put on my roller blades and went to the parking lot where my mom usually picked me up. But for some reason, I rode right past it and went to where his dad's office is. I saw him riding his bike and I ignored him.
As I stood there, I looked around everywhere. Why did I come here? Then I noticed in the corner of my eye, he was putting on some roller blades that were in his backpack. He was doing all sorts of tricks and I could tell that he was showing off.
Eventually, I realized that I should probably get going and head for the car before my mom started to worry. I said goodbye and he waved and smiled at me.
Then the dream shifted.
I was in my room and I had his shirt in my drawer. I picked it up, put it to my nose, and started to cry.
I really wish that I understood what these dreams meant because they are so confusing. I'm not sure if I believe that dreams "mean" anything anymore because there can't be meaning to the dreams that I've been having. Because we're over and he is never going to love me again. I lost him. And that's final.
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Diary of a Broken Girl
Teen FictionThis is the diary of a girl that just never seems to be happy for long...or at all. Will she ever find happiness and get her true love back? Or did he never love her and only use her for his happiness?
