So lately, things have been tough. My mom might not let me go to a regular school and she keeps pushing on me to be so perfect that I feel ashamed of myself. And the thought of having that the rest of high school scares me. And now I may never be able to meet new guys and forget about him. I'm worthless.
Last night, I thought about him and I was listening to music. I started crying and eventually I literally could not breathe at all. I was like hyperventilating. And then I dreamed about hugging him. So, I remembered when exactly I fell in love with him. One simple hug made me fall so hard. And now, well, I'm still stuck. Part of me says, "Nope. Haha he won't ever want you again. Especially because you broke up with him over a text message. And right after he had surgery," (which by the way, he never told me about.) On the other hand, I think, "I love him, and I can wait for him. Maybe we're meant to be in the future." My mind is at war between these two possibilities.
On a different note, I dreamed that I went back to my old school. The only person who noticed I was back was my old history teacher.
Also, this morning I literally had no capability of getting out of bed and starting school. I faked a sore throat and stayed in bed.
Right now I have to finish my homework and go to bed. Ugh.
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Diary of a Broken Girl
أدب المراهقينThis is the diary of a girl that just never seems to be happy for long...or at all. Will she ever find happiness and get her true love back? Or did he never love her and only use her for his happiness?
