Letters To: Gray

ch. 11

Dear Gray,

I thought I was doing better,

I thought I was starting to forget

But today..

Today you called my house.

I heard your voice for the first time in months,

And everything came rushing back.

"Alana?" you asked.

My throat tightened and I could hardly reply..

"Yes." I said flatly.

It took you awhile before you said

"It's Grayson."

I said I knew

Then you asked me how I was doing.

I told you I was doing fine,

And you believed me Grayson.

You used to tell me

You knew when I was lying.

I guess not.

Why'd you call Grayson?

Don't you know it already hurts enough!

I'm tired of this Gray,

I've tried to rid myself of you,

I tried to get better,

But every time I'm almost there

Something always brings me back to you.

I want out Grayson,

Why can't you just understand..

I want out.

Love,

Alana