Letters To: Gray

ch. 6

Dear Grayson,

Guess what?

Today makes four months

Since we broke up.

I remember it like just

happened all over again.

You walked into my room,

I was getting ready to go with Alexis

To the mall.

You came in,

Told me that we needed to talk.

I started crying as soon as you said that,

I knew what was coming.

I had known the entire time we dated

That you'd get sick of me,

Sooner or later.

I knew I wasn't good enough for you,

But I was trying Gray.

I was trying to be everything you needed

Wanted, deserved.

You didn't say anything for quite awhile

We sat on my bed in silence,

The only thing that could be heard were

My sobbs, they echoed off the walls

And I can hear them Gray.

They're echooing inside my head,

Mixed with the sobbs that are pouring

Out of me as the pen meets the paper.

Then, you finally came out and said it.

You're voiced cracked.

"We aren't working out Lana,

We're in two different points

Of our lives right now,

I love you but,"

I stopped you.

"Go" I said,

"Go."

You tried to apologize,

you kept repeating "I'm so sorry"

Over and over again.

And it just made the whole thing worst

Grayson.

I yelled.

"YOU DONT HAVE TO APOLOGIZE

FOR NOT LOVING ME ANYMORE."

With that you just looked at me,

I know I looked horrible.

Mascara running down my face,

My eyes red and puffy,

But you starred at me and you

whispered something to yourself.

You walked over to me and took my

Face into your hands, connected our lips

And kissed me for the last time,

Then you walked out of my life.

Forever.

I think that was the worst part Gray,

The way I can remember every detail,

Especially the way your lips felt.

How you I could taste salt on your lips

From the tears that ran down your face.

And even just writing about it,

I can remember the look on your face

When you walked out my bedroom door

Why is this so hard Gray?

Why can't I let you go?

I want to so badly,

God it hurts so much.

Please Gray.

I love you,

Alana