Letters To: Gray

ch. 15

Dear Gray,

The day has come,

My last day..

God this is really hard,

But it has to be done.

This is goodbye Gray.

To you,

To mom,

To Daniel,

Willow.

This is goodbye to the world.

I don't know how to explain

How sorry I am,

Even though you probably don't care.

But if you do,

If there is even a little part of you that

Maybe, just maybe still loves me.

I want you to know I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for not being enough.

I'm sorry for leaving.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

God, there is so much to say

But I just don't know how.

I hope you don't think this is your fault

I did this to myself,

I destroyed myself .

You're probably going to find someone

Someone prettier,

Skinnier,

Funnier,

Someone who deserves you.

And you're going to fall in love,

And forget all about me.

Our memories are going to fade away,

You'll come back to this town one day,

Take her to all our old places

And let her meet your mom.

And dear god, I pray she cherishes you

Grayson,

She better love you with her entire being
Because she'll have everything I've

Ever wanted.

I want you to know

You still have my heart,

You always have.

But I had to realise,

Nothing is forever.

Not even life..

I have to go Grayson,

Goodbye.

With much love,

Alana.