Letters To: Gray

ch. 9

Dear Gray,

I have a question..

Was it easy?

Was it easy leaving me?

Did it hurt you one bit to see me cry?

Did it even cross your mind that I

wouldn't be able to keep going without you?

I'm asking because it seems like it was.

You didn't even look back,

You just walked away,

And I don't understand why.

And I want you back, so badly.

After all this, after having my heart broken repeatedly,

I still want you.

What's wrong with me Grayson,

Why can't I hate you?

......

God I'm such a baby,

I write these letters all the time,

Complaining and crying over someone

Who couldn't care less how I feel

And although I keep crying and complaining,

I can't stop.

I keep going back,

And I don't know why..

Why I keep doing this to myself,

I'm quitting Grayson.

I'm not writing anymore,

Not until I'm better..

I'm not going to continues to torment myself with you..

I'm done.

Love,

Alana