Love Him... More

"Ahh" Shine wakes up and her head hurts so much -her head feels like someone is literally separating her cranial sutures. There is a glass of water and a headache meds at her bedside table as if someone had prepared these ahead of time. Shine stand up and head to the bathroom just like a zombie to empty her bladder, after she has taken the tablet.

"What the hell happened last night?"Shine asked herself in the mirror while she washed her hands and her face.

Shine have her hand massage her temporal bone as she walked out from the bathroom. She saw Allen sleeping in the couch of her room -Allen wakes up.

"Oh you are awake" Allen said while yawning.

"Allen?what are you doing here?" Shine asked surprised by his presence.

"We should probably eat our breakfast first. I'll wait for you downstairs" Allen said with a smile and he walk towards the door.

Shine is on her phone while she is in a prone position.

"Hello! Yuzu, you know I am mad at you...I like you and I love you but I am really mad you..." Shine's drunken memories comes -it made her head hurts more.

"Did I call him last night?" Shine said and she rashly get her phone to check if her memory is correct.
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"Hana! come" Allen said pointing in the vacant chair in front of him. Shine walk silently as she obediently follows him and sit in front of him.

"Are you okay?" Allen instantly asked Shine the moment she had sit.

Shine nodded.

"Good!" Allen said as he take a bite.

"Allen, what happened last night?" Shine hesitantly asked.

Allen smile a little and answer her.

"I don't know..."He pause "but you called me last night...Drunk". Allen drop his fork and lean back to his chair.

"What did I say?" Shine hesitantly asked again.

"You tell me!"Allen said in a more serious manner.

"Well, I can't remember a thing" Shine honestly said.

"You said you love me" Allen sadly said but Shine can tell there are more Allen wanted to add, so she keep her silence.

"But it's not me you're actually talking too..."He pause again and exhale. "You thought I am him...YUZURU" Allen finishes with a sad tone in his voice.

"I..see" Shine shyly said as she put her head down.

"Can't you really love me?" Allen suddenly asked.

"I...I am trying, Allen...but" Shine hesitantly said and she lifted her head to looked Allen in the eyes.

"no! you're not" Her inner self honestly said to her.

"...but I... still love him" Shine finishes.

Allen shake his head as if erasing what he just heard and looked Shine back in the eyes.

"It's okay...I know we can't haste things like that...and I am not forcing you to love me right now..." Allen pause. He exhale loudly and continue "I am not giving up on you...on us...Hana"
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3:30 p.m Shine is ready to meet Yuzuru. She check herself on her full length mirror at her walk-in closet.

Shine is wearing a white, closed-neck knitted, long sleeves shirt with a large V-collared, white wool jacket; she paired it with a brown skinny jeans and a flat fur boots.