Mutual Feeling | A Beyonce & Rihanna Story

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***Beyonce POV

"I don't know, I think that this all may be too fast. I told her I was going to do it but now I'm having second thoughts"

I'm on the phone with Solange, I called her immediately after I hung up with Rihanna.

"Second thoughts about what BB? Don't keep putting this poor girl threw your shit if your not ready. No one deserves this" Solange said

I'm rolling my eyes realizing that she didn't understand what I meant.

"No, I'm leaving Jay! I just don't know if TODAY is the day that I should leave him. I don't think I should tell him today"

"If not today, when? Today will turn into tomorrow, tomorrow will turn into a week and a week will turn in to months. I mean Rihanna does not seem like they type of girl who wants to wait" she laughed "What exactly are you waiting for?"

She's right, I can't keep putting it off, but I just don't think today is the day.

"I honestly wanted to wait until after the Tidal concert, I honestly still want to perform. I know if we tell Jay this he's going to cancel the whole concert, and I don't want that"

There was silence... Did she just hang up on me?

"Solange"

"I'm here, I'm just looking for a nice way to call you a dumbass, and I couldn't find the right words, so you're a dumbass. That's fucking stupid.. You would risk losing Rihanna... AGAIN.. Because you want a concert to happened? Just really let me know how that's a smart decision?"

"I didn't expect you to understand"

"I don't understand because it's fucking stupid, BB.. I'm not trying to be mean but let's look at the big picture here, you got Rihanna, DON'T LOSE HER!"

"I know"

"What's they real reason? Are you that scared to talk to Jay about this?"

I sigh "I am Solange, like I know I wanna be with Rihanna, I'm not in love with Jay anymore. But I still do have love for him.. And no one deserves to get thier heart broken, especially twice."

"So you'd jeopardize your own happiness for his? Don't do that to yourself, you deserve to be happy"

I sit in silence, she was right. I do deserve to be happy. Why should I put Jay's feelings over mines? The only other person feelings here that matter are Rihanna's, so why am I still so concerned with how this will all make Jay feel. I need to focus on Rihanna, her feelings and how what I'm doing will effect her. I plan on being with Rihanna and I want it to last. So why is everything that I'm doing benefiting Jay. 

"You're right.. I'm not making smart decisions. Thank you Solange. You just saved me from a huge argument with Rihanna." I laugh

"That's what I'm here for baby girl, help with the decision making when your being a dumbass" she giggled. "I love you BB, and every thing is going to turn out find, you'll be ok, Rihanna will be there with you every step of the way. You got this"

I laugh at the thought of her giving me a motivational speech about telling my husband I want a divorce.

"Thank you Solo, you made me feel a lot better about this, I DO GOT THIS!" I say cracking myself up "I love you, and I'll call you later"

I hang up the phone and stare out the window, we were getting close and I hope I can keep this courage with me when I get there, but I slowly feel it dwindling away.

***Rihanna POV

7:11pm
I'm pulling up now

Beyonce texted me that she was finally here. I had this weird feeling in my stomach about this. I just feel like it's going to end badly. But I have to stay composed. I know the minute I show that this is kinda making me nervous that Beyonce will change her mind. I have to stay strong for the both of us.