A Look Inside a Crazy Mind

Anger

But don't you understand that

all this anger pilling down on me is crushing through my heart.

Can't you see that I don't know how im supposed to let all of this out.

You hit me if I scream

Scold when I break down

How am I supposed to let this out?

This blood on the floor

is your doing.

If I can't let it out through my movements then I'll spill it from my wrists.

All this anger I'm just taking out on myself.

How do I tell you that you're making my life a living hell?

Someone please save me and bring me to the light.

Make this bullshit called life alright.

How can I stand up if im chained to the ground?

How can I tell you if you won't let me make a sound?

Why do I bother

if I know I'll just fall.

Please save me.

Just save me.

All I wanna do is rise for one and all.

This anger

it's boiling

my blood and I gotta get it out.

Your very existence makes me sick,

how do I scream out that I'm tired of this shit?

How can I fly

if you've severed my wings?

How do I try when

the same old voices ring.

"You'll never

be more than

a sad and lonely girl

that never got a saviour"

Please save me.

Just save me.

How can I just save myself when I'm too weak

to hold my own to

the ones who call me freak?

Please save me.

Just save me.

I don't know how I let this out.

My pen flies

across the parchment

as I cry

tears of joy,

hear my voice

as I scratch

down all the dreams that I could never catch.

Hold the knife

one last time.

the book of stars was my last good bye.

And I let

out all this

anger that's been boiling down inside.

One last pain relieving time.

If only

I had the courage to end all of my pain.

Clearly

that's not the case.

I gotta face reality.

Im always

so angry

at everything

and I can't control it.

You're forcing me to bottle all this up inside.

But you're pushing it too far.

Soon

I'm gonna break down

and a sea of fury will engulf your hearts.

You'll know what I was saying when I cried that I was falling apart.

You'll be drowning in the pain that I've endured for too many years.

Overwhelmed with the demons I could never slay, as your heartless eyes turn red with tears.

The day it all comes pouring out

you're gonna know what it's like to live in fear.

I'm letting it fall out.

Can't hold it back, it's been hidden for too long, now let me hear

the songs I've longed to blast

and the

tales I've longed to tell.

You'll live a hell

just like I,

darling youd never get by.

But remember

this is all because

of you.