Phan - One-shots [ COMPLETED ]

~Three Times

Hey :)
This one is based off a Dan Howell quote.
It's short and sweet.
Warnings: lil angsty

Words: 490

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Maybe once can't count as real love.

Christopher Kendall.
High-school boyfriend.
We thought we were oh-so-deeply in love, when, in reality, we were basically fuck buddies.

We did do all those stupid cliché things, like go on picnics together, kiss under the stars, cuddle at night.
But that was.. Dull.
For show, really. Subconsciously trying to prove we were more than the quick fuck.
When he touched my arm, or kissed me, I didn't feel those fireworks people talk about when they meet their "soulmate" or some shit. It was just numb, fuelled by lust most times.

When I walked into his room to see him fucking some girl, I wasn't surprised. At that point him and I were no more than friends with benefits, really. I just talked to him after and asked if we should end our "relationship", if you could even called it that.
Our break up was mutual.

Then the next one was, but it wasn't happy love.

PJ Liguori.
This time, I felt love.
I felt a whole fucking world of love for this boy.
I thought he loved me. I really, truly believed he did. I'm pretty sure he did. Up until the first swing of his fist. I remember it like it was yesterday.
I had come home from going to the grocery store.
"Hey, faggot! Get in here!"
His voice rand through my ears.
He must be joking.
It's what I thought.
"Hey, Peej! I got-"
"Shut up."
It had taken me back a little bit, but I persisted.
I tried to wrap my arms around his waist but instead, I got a punch to the face.
I left him shortly after.
It took me a while, but I finally grew a pair and told the police that my boyfriend had been abusing me, and I got out of there as soon as I could.
I'm glad he's in prison now.

Then, the third time is the best time ever.

Philip Michael Lester.
Soon to be Lester-Howell.
He brought me out of the deep, dark pit of despair and depression into the light.
The light of the world he showed me when I met him.
Since I met him everything's seemed brighter to me.
Our relationship had a few bumps, but it all resulted in apologies and 'I love you's.
I love him more than anything and anyone.
He loves me back with the same amount.
He makes me happy.

Real, true unrequited love, which is the best feeling in the best feeling in the world.

xx