decisions | a Deamus fanfic

My worst mistake

                                    

                  Today was the official day back to Hogwarts, first day of classes, first day of seeing your friends, first day of homework. First day of actually having Dean to myself. This thought makes me spring out of bed, Ginny and Dean have no classes together, but Dean and I do.

                I head to the showers and wash myself off, I comb my hair back, not slick like Malfoy's but somewhat slick. I straighten my tie and head out, as soon as I step into the boy's door the smell of Peppermint fills the air, I look around and notice Dean is the only one in the room. I  smooth out my vest and walk over to him. "Good morning." I say trying to sound tire, so it doesn't seem like I was waiting all morning to see him (even though I was). He turned around and put the jar filled with the sweet peppermint flavor down. "Oh hey Shay." I smile to myself, he gave me that nickname in our second year.

                  "I never knew you were interested in smelling somewhat refreshing." I joke, hoping he found it funny. It was, because he gave a tiny chuckle that made my heart melt to the floor. His dimples were showing which made me fall in love with him more and more every day. "Uh, yea..I guess I got into it, take a whiff and tell me what you think." He responds whispering picking up the jar and holding it in front of my nose.

                             My heart stops this is the closest we've ever been, and the fact that no one else is here makes it even better.  I take in a deep breathe and the aroma of the peppermint fills my nose. "So, Shay?" He asked. I shoot him a playful glare. "Shh... I'm still processing the smell, calm down, I might set it on fire." I say softly. He laughs a little and smirks. What I want to tell him that this smells like something you would just like to lay on and hold it against your body, that is scent is just strong enough that when you take a quick smell that it stays in  your nose long enough for it to be processed to you long term memory, but just subtle enough that it isn't the first thing that to smell, but to really appreciate it you need to hold the person close to you, but I don't say that at all. 

                                  Instead I say, "It smells nice." I say quietly giving him a genuine smile. he nods and puts the bottle down. We stay there for a couple for a little, that tiny irrelevant gap between. I prayed that he couldn't hear my heart beating,after a minute he pulled away and cleared his throat. "I'll see you in potions." He says softly. I nod but before I can turn to go leave, grabs my arms and brings me close so his mouth is right next to my ear.My heart tops beating and I don't say anything. "My mother used to use this rub,and, I loved it, and yesterday I found it, I hope Ginny likes it."

                                    Ouch. He pulled away and walked out of the room, leaving me broken, and desperate for him to come back, and be with him once more. I took a deep breath and try top stop my tears. I grab my books and quickly rush out to Slughorn's class, who ever Slughorn is. I shrug and wander down the hallway. 

                          I walked into the room and a bunch of students around a table. "Ah, Hello dear boy your name is?" Slughorn I think his name one asks. I walk further into the classroom. "Uh..Seamus." I say quietly walking to the crowd. I stand next to Dean and look around, Harry Potter, Hermione Granger, Ron Weasley, Draco, Pansy, Blaise, Ginny. Wait what! Ginny? What is she doing here?" I lean over to her and across Dean seeing as she was right by him. "What are you doing here?" I ask softly. "Oh I convinced Dumbledore to change my classes, so me and Dean can have our classes together. 

                        My heart sank, and I was immediantly filled with anger but instead I tried to surppress it. For Dean of course. "Really? I didn't know you could do that." She nods smiling claerly happy with herself. "Yes of course, silly, if you would like to change a class I could help you." She offered genuinely trying to be nice to me. I shook my head politely. "No thank you Ginny." She smiled. "Well if you need anything I'm right here." I nodded and looked at Dean.

                                                                       His hand was interlocked with Ginny's...

                                  I turned away quickly and tried to get  that image out of my head. "So Today class we will be leaning about the love potion called Amorenia. Amortenia  is the most powerful Love Potion in existence. It causes a powerful infatuation or obsession from the drinker. It has a distinctive mother-of-pearl sheen, and steam rises from it in characteristic spirals," He says holding up a jar of it, "If a person smells it, it's supposed to smell like something that attracts them, would anyone like to give it a test smell?" He asked. Multiple hands shot up in the air. He scanned around the room before stopping. "Seamus! You seem interested! come up here and take a whiff!" He said motioning me to go up there.

                                        I walked up to the cauldron and peered inside it. "Alright son tell me what you smell."  Slughorn said softly. I nodded and inhaled, the fresh wood from a broomstick filled the air. I turned to look at him and cleared my throat. "Wood from a firebolt, or any broomstick in general." I took another sniff. "This time I smell fresh paint." Slughorn nods. I take one last smell and I stop. Peppermint. Just the way I described it. "Well son??" Slughorn asked. I take a deep breath and look down, "P-pepper m-mint." I says softly stuttering. I look up and Dean's eyes meet my gaze, he shoots me a glare that says, 'Shay, what the hell is going on?'  Ginny realizes what Dean is worried about. She takes his hand and smells the air around her. "Oh, Seamu-" She starts, and I cut her off. "I have to go." I say quickly and run out of the room.

                                              I run down the halls as quickly as I can. Thoughts are running through my mind, like there was a prize to be won. 'Ginny knows, oh god Ginny knows, Dean doesn't have a clue but Ginny knows.'  I make it only past the second classroom before a hand grabs my arm and yanks me back. It's Dean...... "Shay," He whispers our faces only centimeters apart. I gulp and before I knew it, he kissed me. "I left Ginny for you." He whsipers after we pull apart. "I love you." I reply. "I love you too.." Dean said softly.     

                                Then I woke up. I finally realized what this dream was telling me

                                  that no matter how hard I try I can't stop loving Dean

                                                               He's my worst mistake 

                                                                      and I'm finally paying for it

                                 A/N I thought this was a good place to leave this chapter off! Sorry for the ending I cried while writing it but whatever, I'll update again on Thanksgiving if you guys would like me to!

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