A/N this chapter has swear words so if you're an immature tweeny bopper you probably shouldn't read this. But you know Seamus doesn't appreciate your life either so, screw off.
Dean grabbed my arm and smiled, "Off to the party now I presume?" He asks in a stupid accent but of course I loved him so I nodded and chuckled softly. "Yes of course silly, you can stop with your stupid wannabe posh accent you're not fooling anybody." He puts his hands up in defense and rolls his eyes, "I thought you liked it Shay." He said pouting. I shrug and bite my lip, "Just let's go." I say and pull him out of the room.
We walk through the hallway and eventually into the great hall, where the giant party was held, "This is a lot of people." I left off good looking because Dean was bisexual which means he swings both ways, and that makes me feel insecure because I'm in love with him, and I kinda think of him as mine, but whatever.
"Hey Shay it's alright I only love you." He says softly, as if he had known what I was thinking, it was only a little reassuring. He rubbed my sides and he leaned close to my ear, so close, that you could hear his breath. "I love you so much, I'm in love you you, and I swear I fell for you in fact "Im still falling for you, and everytime you speak I get back up and I fall again, I only love you, and I only ever will." He says and before he pulls away, he places a gently kiss under my ear.
I blush and I feel my knees go weak, he smiles and leads me over into the crowd of people, of course Neville and Luna go around passing butterbeer, I gladly take one and Dean takes three, I tense up and he kisses my cheek, I know how he gets when he's drunk, I'm scared.
We dance for a while, before I spot Lavender eyeing Dean, She winks and Dean scoffs and rolls his eyes, apparently Lavender thought it was an invite so naturally she came over, I heat up as I get ready to pull Dean out of here, but when she gets here I freeze, "Hey Dean." She says in a very lustful voice, and she trails her fingers up Dean's arm, "Why don't we get out of here? I'm sure your friend won't mind." Dean pulls back and immediantly wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me close to him, "Fuck off Lavender." He growls.
"Prude." Lavender hisses before unbuttoning one of the buttons on Dean's shirt before walking away. She winks as she walks further from us. Dean turns back to look at me, and he rests his hand on my face gently, "Love did I handle it alright?" I nodded and looked down and back up at him, "Yeah but can you button your shirt, please?" I asked sheepishly as a blush crept onto my face. Dean raises an eyebrow and eyes me, "Why?" He asked. I wanted to tell him because Lavender did it but instead I just shook my head, "Nevermind." I mutter.
We stayed out in the great hall for a couple more hours then went out into the hallway because there was a bar like thing where they served Butterbeer and Firewhisky, and Cauldron cakes and other sorts of snacks. Dean held my hand as we went and sat down on two stools the entire time Dean was staring as various girls.
I got fed up so I hit his arm gently, "Dean what as I talking about." I snapped, and he looked up surprised, "Um...um," Before he finally gave up and sighed, "um....I wasn't even listening love I'm sorry." He apologizes and takes my hand and gently brushes his lips against my knuckles. I roll my eyes and take a sip of my butterbeer, "That's because you were staring at that girls ass." I mumbled under my breath.
On any other day Dean would snap his head up so quick so that he'd get whiplash but instead he doesn't and by now I have a massive pounding headache and I just want to go into my nice warm bed and fall asleeep without a care in the world.
SO I tap Dean on the arm and he looks up at me and tilts his head, "Yes?" He asked innocently which made my heart melt that I was making him leave so early, "Babe I'm ready to go now." I tell him and he just simply nods, "Dean are you coming?" I asked and he shook his head, "I might go hang out with Harry or something." He answers and I nod disappointed he didn't want to go with me.
I hop off the stool and just give him a weak wave. I walk down the hallway to the Gryffindor common room, "nittygrittle." I mumble seeing as that was our password and the portrait swung open and go inside. I sit on the couch for a little while before going up to mine and Dean's dorm for a little before falling asleep.
A little while l woke up and saw an empty spot in thee bed next to me, so I got up and went down to the common room. I walked down the stairs and saw Ron Hermione Ginny Lee and no sign of Dean, "Do you know where Dean is?" I asked and Lee nodded, "yeah he's sleeping in my room because he didn't want to throw up on you if he had to." I smile slightly before nodding and saying thank you and walking upstairs to Lees dorm. I heard noises from inside the room and thought nothing of it, "He's probably throwing up. " I say to myself before walking in.
"OH MY FUCKING GOD YOU BITCH!" I yell at the top of my lungs as I see Lavender's clothes thrown everywhere and in Lee's bed and Dean's clothes everywhere and Dean in the bed with Lavender. Tears sprang to my eyes as Dean looked up and looked pretty much sober, "Shay...." He starts and I cut him off, "NO! YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO CALL ME THAT YOU PIECE OF SHIT!" I yell at him and he seems hurt as my tone lowers, "H-How could you?" I asked him and he shrugged, "Sha- Seamus please listen to me..." He says softly and I shake my head, "Fuck you Dean, fuck you, it's over never talk to me ever again asshole."
I tell him and and walk out of the dorm slamming the door. The worst part is I still love him and I'm pissed that I wasn't in the bed with him, I love him so much and multiple times he's ripped my heart out and stepped on it. I want him but I can't keep hurting myself, because he keeps screwing up I don't it anymore. But i still want him....
Goddamit Dean
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SOrry it took me so long to update I've been super busy but I hope you guy like the chapter keep in mind there is two more chapters left in this before the sequel, I hope you guys are enjoying it so far, and I"ll try to update two times a week and I'm also going to write a Dramione fanfic so yeah look forward to that!
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decisions | a Deamus fanfic
FanfictionI fell in love with my best friend, Sometimes I regret it, Sometimes i love it, But right now, I truly believe that this is the best decision, I have made in a lifetime... - Seamus Finnagan ( Decisions )
