decisions | a Deamus fanfic

Everlasting

          When I got to my dorm I screamed at the top of my lungs and sobbed violently, " I HATE HIM!" I yelled loudly. "I FUCKING HATE HIM." I say before looking down feelings my shoulders rack with sobs and shake my head as tears drip down my fast, "I CANT BELIEVE HIM!" I scream. I sit down on my bed and bury my head in my hands with embarrasment. I can't believe I was such an idiot to trust him. I should've made him come back with me. I looked at the bathroom and I took a deep breath, before standing up and walking into the bathroom.

          I looked around and walking over to the sink and gripped both sides of it with my hands so tight my knuckles turned white . I looked into the mirror and saw worthless nothingness. I was absolutely disgusted. It's my fault I understand why Dean cheated it's because I am absolutely disgusting, worthless, ugly, stuck in an imaginary life where I thought Dean and I could be together but we can't.

            I was stuck in this fantasy that Dean could ever love me. I feel completely and totally Dean with life itself. Somewhere deep down inside me I know I knew that Dean never really loved me, I was such a fool to believe he actually did, because I knew he didn't it's my fault, but I was still fucking pissed off.

           So I reached into the cabinet and took out the glass bottle that was filled with peppermint elixir. I took a deep breath before shaking it up and walking out of the bathroom. I opened the window next to my bed and grabbed a stool and stood on top of it. I smirked slightly looked at the fountain where dean asked me out. I chucked the peppermint elixir out the window and it broke open on the fountain spilling a liquid that smelled like peppermint all over.

           I chuckled lightly and smiled wiping my eyes very satisfied with what I did. I closed the window and got off the stool and put it away and grinned out the window and changed my clothes into a pair of pajamas and a night cap because why not they seem extremely fun and comfortable. I got into bed and tossed and turned before grabbing my wand off my bedside table and cast a spell on the ceiling to make it seem as if though there were stars, "That's better." I mumbled to myself and nodded in satisfaction. I smiled to myself before lying on my side and closed my eyes and fell asleep.

            The next morning I woke up and took off my silk nightcap and laid it on  my nightstand. I got out and took a shower and got changed. I pulled on jeans and a sweatshirt and walked down to the great hall. I walked inside and took a seat the Gryffindor table, "Shay..." I heard a voice say and I turned pale gulped and turned around. I almost cried at the sight of Dean holding hands with Ginny. "Hello Seamus.." Ginny said softly and almost sad like. Dean cleared his throat, "Good morning Shay." He said formally. It was like we were strangers. 

              I shook my head and turned back around and looked at my food. Ginny and Dean left but then three minutes past and they walked back over, "T-There's no p-place to sit anywhere else m-mind if we?" Ginny asked stuttering. I shook my head and scooted over so they can sit. I was such a pushover I need to stop. It was absolutely horrid honestly they wouldn't stop snogging and I was getting sick and tired of them flirting. It was disgusting like I thought Dean's face would be eaten by now. I'm too bitter.

               "I love you Ginny." I heard Dean mutter. As soon as I heard those four words tears sprang to my eyes. I stood up abruptly and sobbed the whole great hall was looking at me. I grabbed a container of butter and a butter kife. I scooped up a lot of butter and by a lot I mean a lot and I smushed it on Dean's head, "You.Said.You.Loved.Me." I say angry as hell. Then I put the entire container on top of his head and poured pumpkin juice on top then I put a cherry to finish it off. "ASSHOLE!" I yell at him and ran out of the great hall.

              "Seamus wait!" I heard someone yell and I turned around to see the no other Draco Malfoy, "Hey..." I say sniffing, "I-I like Harry I thought I liked Hermione but I'm gay you wanna make Dean jealous, I wanna make Harry jealous, Hermione's with Ron now, I'll help you." I think for a moment and I smirked. "Why not?" I say and Draco smirked as well he held out his hand and I gladly took it. "Wait!" Draco says and messes up both of our hair and unbuttons two of his buttons and takes off his tie and hands it to me, "It looks like we.....you know. " I tell him and Draco nodded, "yes Shay I know." 

              I nod eagerly at his idea. I take his hand and we both walk into the greathall. "Your table." Draco whispers to me. I nod and walk over to the Gryffindor table. We took a seat next to Dean and Ginny and Dean scoffed, "You can get over someone so quickly can't you." He said in disbelief and I shrugged, "You did." I said and Draco wrapped his arms around my waist, and put his head on my shoulder, "Don't listen to him." He whispered in my ear which sent shivers down my spine. 

          "So you guys fucked?" Dean asked clearly jealous. Draco nodded. "how can you fuck that quick?" Dean asked and Draco rolled his eyes, "How can you cheat on someone so quickly? And a quick hookup is called a quickie you imbecile." Draco said and I buried my face in his neck to keep from laughing. "You're amazing." I whispered to him. Draco chuckled and nodded.

          I hated Dean now. I hated him, how could he take my dreams and stop all over them? I still loved him though and I hope this breakup won't be everlasting.

A/N

That's it guys on more chapter until it's over then the sequel who else is excited, thoughts on Dean and Ginny? Thoughts on Draco and Seamus? 

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