Heart Like Stone & Soul Black as Coal

Chapter 5

I'm deciding if I want to enter the manor and face my mother or go into the woods and forget about everything. I decide on the latter. I begin to walk into the woods. Here all the trees are dead. Crows and ravens fly around looking for their next pray. The sun doesn't shine here,its dark,grey,gloomy. Dried leaves crunch under my feet as I go. As the wind blows throughout the trees the branches squeak and you can hear it whisper. You can't understand what its says but it's a sure thing that it carries words with it,words that have never been said so it takes them. Its cold and sends shivers up your spine causing goosebumps to raise. I mean,the only thing that scares me is my mother and I don't even show it but in this woods you just feel...watched. You feel like someone is hiding and secretly analyzing you. You feel like they are trying to look straight into your soul and uncover all your secrets. That thought alone is enough to creep even me out. This forest carries those vibes. Everything is dead,just like my soul. That's probably why I like it,this woods and me have a lot in common.

I finally reach my destination, the lake. It's not big at all but it is very deep. The waters are black and a thin layer of fog is on top of it. The lake is always freezing,its has no living things in it. Its too cold and dark for any light to go through that dark water, making it impossible for there to be any life in it. That's why I call it the dead lake. No plants. No animals. Nothing. It's just dead.

I have always sat under a tree very closely to the lake. When I was little and my mother would give me free time I would wonder into the woods and explore. It is probably the only thing that I could do that was close to normal. One day I found this lake and I found it so intriguing,it was just like my soul,a dark and cold place,dead. I thought of it as a reflection of me. Since that day I would always come down here and just think or avoid my reality. Somedays I would practice my magic,other days I would think of what I needed to do better or of what I did wrong so I wouldn't do it again,sometimes I just came to relax and forget everything,but other days I would come and release my anger.

You see,sometimes I did spells wrong and it didn't satisfy my mother and I got frustrated. Because I wanted for her to be satisfied by my spells,by my magic,and the days I couldn't accomplish that I came here and released my anger. I just didn't scream into the wind all my emotions,I did horrible things. I would cast torture spells on myself because I thought I deserved it for doing the spells the way a weakling would do it. I would take out my anger on other living things. I would go and find forest creatures and give them slow,agonizing deaths. All because I was angry.

Now I don't do it as much. Mainly because I am very good at almost all the spells I do. So so I don't get frustrated because of that. Now I get frustrated because of other things.

Right now I came here because I have to think. I have to think what the hell can I do to get Mr.Green eyes in trouble.

I can't just do something like graffiti the whole school and blame it on him. That would be to nice. He would just get a month worth of detention.

Maybe I can put a spell in him so he wouldn't be in control of his body,and I can control him. Yes. That would be perfect. I can make him torture others and be just like me. I smirk and think of all the possibilities. I can whisper things into his mind to make him go crazy.Yes!
The poor idiot is going to regret ever putting a finger on me.

Now, with that settled I should get back to the manor. I am starving.

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-"So how was your day?"mother asks me. As if she even cared.
-"It was fine,I guess"I say while I pick on my food.
-"Did anything bad?Anyone you got to hurt?"she asks. If you live with my mother,these are the questions you get asked.
-"Yeah,just a couple that pissed me off."
-"That's great."
For the rest of the meal it's silent. It has always been like this. But right now I have spells to put on people and trouble to make so I get my plate throw it in the sink and go upstairs.