Skinny Love (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter two- Independence

Grabbing my keys from the bowl on the wooden cabinet near my door I left, before my mum could even lecture me about how breakfast is the most important meal of the day and how I had to eat. To be honest I was saving her a job, we all know ever since dad left she never cared about me. She was never around to care, always out trying to find something or somebody to amuse until she met Richard who was now my step dad. Hes the only one person i can really relate to in this house and yet were not blood related. I guess you could say I'm  Independent.

Backing out of the drive way, i headed to Mollies house, like i did every morning before college because she was the only person who didn't have her licence yet. Mollie was the only person who stayed with me as my parents split and that's why i think she sees me as the girl who was fun and happy rather than the ill girl with a eating disorder. Waiting outside her house, i slouched whilst watching her flick her long brown hair behind her back revealing her perfectly sculpted figure, she was so pretty and confident, it killed me.

"Cassie!" she screamed enthusiastically, her smile was so wide. 

"Hey Mollie, How are you?" I replied trying to be as excited as she was but it came out weak and fragile. She jumped into the passengers seat she immediately searched for the lead to connect her phone to the car stereo.

"I'm Fabulous babe, How are you? Have you eaten yet today?" 

"I knew that was coming"

"Oh come on you need to eat, you know how i feel about this, we should go get some tea at least" 

"For your information I'm not hungry"

"Lets just go already" she said as i pulled out into the road, she insisted we listen to a new song by one direction, i wasn't keen on the idea because i had a throbbing migraine and the pain still remained in my stomach. So without her permission i slyly turned it down when she didn't realise. 

A while later we arrived at college, i knew it would be a struggle sitting through 5 lessons today, as i could barely shut the door of my car. I managed to get to first period without fainting and gladly sat at the back of the classroom taking in all the information that Mrs Owen was teaching. 

The day was already dragging and to be honest i could feel the sickness building inside me, but there was nothing to bring up, this had been the longest time i hadn't eaten anything and my energy levels were low. I wanted to curl up in a ball for the rest of my life. As Mrs Owen continued talking about Atoms my focus lingered and my thought seemed deeper than usual i couldn't deal with this and immediately raised my hand and asked to be excused. I could feel every ones eyes focused on me as my bones creaked whilst walking like a skeleton out of the room. My intentions were to drop all my lessons and stay in the study room.

after school

I met Mollie to give her a ride home like usual and she seemed happy and flirty talking to Brandon, until she noticed my slouched body approaching her. The expression in her face immediately changed to a worried look. 

"CASSIE! you haven't eaten still have you, i knew we should have gone to the coffee shop on the corner shit."

"its nothing i just got up early and its been a long day"

"I'm buying you food and your going to eat it OK?" i nodded as i simply had no energy to argue with her about this, she turned to Brandon and apologised, and he just starred at my body like everyone. i knew i was horrible and unpleasing to look at but right now i didn't need to be reminded so i darted him a look and he walked away.

"look Cassie I'm going to have to drive us to the coffee shop, i know i can do it, its only round the corner" she said guiding me to the passenger seat, she was right there would be more risk me driving than her.

my mind went completely blank all i remembered is sitting in the car and now I'm sitting in the coffee shop down town starring at a cheese sand witch. I used to love these but the thought of eating this made me want to vomit. The only way id be able to get out of this situation was to eat this a please everyone but the thing is I'm supposed to be pleasing myself and i don't want this i want the body the hair, the gap between my thighs.. the things all boys look for in a girl.

every ones eyes pierced on me, i pushed the plate towards Mollie.

"I cant do it Mollie, i can't I JUST CANT DO IT I MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS AND I CANT" i said aggressively standing from my chair. I knew i was too weak to stand but i forcefully pushed myself.

'Cassie, your unwell and you need to eat!" at this point every ones eyes and ears were locked on us engulfed in our argument. 

I felt myself falling but i didn't hit the ground...

something or somebody must have caught me.

 Mollies POV-

"CASSIE!" i screeched at the top of my lungs as i saw her shaky body fall towards the floor, a tall thin figure turned to face where the scream was coming from noticing the tears in my eyes catching her lifeless body as it fell. i wiped the tears from my eyes and the blurred tall figure became clear, the curly hair was firmiliar ''harry styles'' i weakily whispered tears still rolling down my face.