COMPLICATED SITUATION

Chapter 23

Ahlie's POV

Nasa kotse na kami ni Frank. Tulala ako.Naiisip ko ang mga pinagsasabi ni Rocco sa akin. Ganoon ba ko kasama?

"Ayos ka lang?" tumingin ako sa kanya. he looks worried. i just smile. a smile with hurt.

"bakit ba sya nandito?" may inis nyang tanong.

"i don't know. I'm taking pictures while eating ice cream, when i scan my phone i saw him at my back. i look at his side, he run towards me then hugged me." umiiyak ako habang nagkekwento kay Frank "top.... am i really that bad? i left him without giving him any reason. i left him hanging with the love he doesn't deserved"

"layls, you just had to make a choice. follow your heart. feel each beat. are you happy with your choice? or do you want to go back?" he sighed. i can't read his emotion.

"i am happy..... with you." he look at me in shock. " i feel guilt of hurting him. he doesn't deserved that. nagmamahal lang sya. "

"wife, ang nagmamahal.. nagpaparaya. maswerte lang tayo kasi hindi tayo ang kailangan magsakripisyo. And every sacrifice deserves happiness. in the end, he will be happy more than his past."

"sabi nya.. bat ko ba daw sya kadaling iwan, bakit ba ang dali dali kong kalimutan ang mga pinagsamahan namin, bakit ba ang dali ko syang palitan. At wala akong maisagot sa mga tanong nya. alam mo kase, kahit mag divorce tayo hindi ko na sya kayang balikan kahit wala naman syang ibang ginawa kundi ang mahalin ako."

"alam mo Ahlie, minsan the best way to be happy is to hurt someone."

"i hurt a person who doen't do anything wrong. i understand him of being possessive kanina. he really wants me to back. i told him, he has Sheryll. did he wanted to the the same way as i did?"

"as i've said sometimes the best way to be happy is to hurt someone" confident nyang sabi.

"life was really unfair"

"yes, it is" then he started the engine "are you tired?" i nodded for an answer.

sinuot nya sa akin ang travelling pilow na half heart shaped na binili nya nuon. napangiti naman ako sa ginawa nya.

"sleep. i'll wake you up when we get home"

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i wake up with my legs on top of Frank's tummy.. ha??? psh minsan itong engot na to nakakainis ang pagkagentle man. pwede naman ako gisingin. right?

i look at his face. he looks like an angel.

unti unti na naming napapanindigan ang pagiging mag-asawa. 3 months na namin ngayon as husband and wife.. same as what we started. i do the the household chores, he is working. we fight, we forgive, we laugh, we get irritated. kulang na lang ang magic word.. kailan kaya yon? SOMEDAY.

3 months, and i am knowing him better.

napapanindigan nya ako at napapanindigan ko sya.

sabi ko nga, wala namang nananatili kahit ang tunay na pag-ibig, pero pinapanindigan kaya may wagas na pagmamahalan.

bumangon na ako para magluto ng almusal. linggo ngayon, aayain ko syang magsimba.

nang matapos ako magluto, umakyat na ako sa kwarto ko kung saan natutulog si Frank. ewan ko ba sa engot na to mula ng pumunta kami sa boracay dito na yan natutulog. maliban na lang kapag mag kaaway kami tapos pag sasarahan ko sya ng pinto. may araw pa nga na ako ang pinag saraduhan nya eh kwarto ko yon kaya dun ako sa kwarto nya natulog.

"Frank... frank..."

"hmmmm"

"bangon na, simba tayo!"

"happy third monthsary" ikikiss pa nya sana ako pero.....

"hep, hep... hindi ka pa nagtoothbrush"

"psshh"

"go to your room first manligo ka na at manliligo na rin ako. sabay tayo kakain sa baba"

"kiss muna?"

"utot"

"mabaho utot mo oy!" sabay labas na nya ng kwarto ko.

napangiti na lang ako sa engot na yon.. kung minsan sabi ko sa sarili ko, baka kiss lang ang dahilan kung bakit pinapanindigan ni Frank ang kasal namin pero somehow his effort tells not.

ANG HIRAP NG KUMPLIKADONG SITWASYON. we kissed. we said we're happy on our marriage. we care. we get jealous. BUT DO WE LOVE EACH OTHER?

the answer is cannot be answerable at the moment. time will come, i know it will.

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it's been 3 months.. i still remember walking on this isle having no idea who's the guy waiting for me in front. it's been 3 months when i wear those classy wedding dress, when i took a lot of selfies with it. weird me..... i don't want to get married but i love my looks at that moment. napatingin ako sa kamay ko, tatlong buwan ko na pala tong suot.

lumuhod ako para magdasal..

*God, thank you for everything. it's been 3 months when i met this guy beside me. we're in complicated situation..... but i'm really happy. if ending this is breaking our hearts, please let this complicated situation last forever. God, please take away the pain of Rocco and Gelai. let them forgive us for we really didn't meant to hurt them. please let Frank love me as mush as i do*

after the mass nagyaya sya sakin ng date..... akala ko nga sa mall pero sa yacht sa manila bay nya ako dinala. we are travelling. andito kami sa labas ng yate. nakakatuwa kase suot namin ang couple sun glasses na binili namin sa boracay 3 days after the wedding.

enjoy na enjoy ko ang araw, ang hangin at ang tubig. ang presko ng pakiramdam ko lalo na't kasama ko sya..

nagpiktyur piktyur din kami. para nga akong naka kuha ng photographer. post doon post dito. syempre hindi matatapos ang photoshoot ng wala kaming pictures together.

yung instagram ko dati kung hindi selfies, ootd, puro friends, cousins, bandmates at family ang kasama ko pero ngayon 3 months ng selfies, ootd at si frank lang ang laman. tipong nagtotoothbrush kami pareho, di kaya tulog si frank, minsan saktong nakanganga sya habang kumakain kami, yung binigay nya saking teddy bear and books, yung flower nung 1st monthsary. yung heart travelling pillow. basta parang pati instagram ko umiikot na din sa kanya.

nung pagpasok namin sa loob ng yacht may nakaayos na table... ayiiieee mukhang may dinner date pa kami..

"every month may surprise ka sakin.. hmmmm baka masanay ako" sabi ko habang inaalalayan nya akong umupo.

"baka maubusan kamo ako ng pang surprise"napatawa naman ako.

"kahit ano lang naman okay na ko eeh"

"you know what i really didn't do this to Gelai" seryoso naman akog napatingin sa kanya.. iniintay ko ang mga sususnod pa nyang sasabihin. "but beacause of you i'm being sweet" ewan ko pero kinikilig na ako! epal tong engot na to eeh.

"thank you for doing this top. you made me happy"

"that's all i really want"

"if you're going to divorce me.... napakarami kong memories na babalikan that will made me hurt even more."

"it will never happen layls. this time, i will fight for our marriage, i will fight for us."