COMPLICATED SITUATION

chapter 37

" I passed out. then i woke up in the hospital, there i found out that i was pregnant. At first, i was afraid, nervous and shocked co'z this was my first time and of course, i don't have him at my side. but after a week, when i was walking at the sea side i realized that i should be strong. i have to start my life over again co'z its not just me but the product of our love. he may be not here but i still know he wouldn't like it if i live my life messed. 

i quit showbiz because for me it was not a good idea to know by the public my condition, that we part ways and i'm pregnant.  i became a teacher, well this is actually my profession,this built the needs of my son. 

being single mom is really hard. nung naglilihi ako, all by my self, i mean it's only myself who will give what i wanted. then nung manganganak na ko, i have Nanay Tess, she accompany me to the hospital, she became kahlie's baby sitter, she became my second mom especially I have no experience in taking care of a baby that's why i really thankful having her when my parents have to leave because of some personal matters. 

actually, our house is usual when he left. i mean, when we got divorced, he left me the house and i don't got the chance to redecorate it or renovate it. well, that was not bad beacause it brought  Kahlie to saw how are we before the  complication accured. these is why kahlie knows his dad in pictures.

i hope that he knows that he has a son in me because to be honest, i am not given a chance to tell it to him. i tried to contact him but it seems that he's forgetting all about philippines. 

if he will know, then he knows. what i mean is, i will not ask for his support. i will not ask for his wealth. and i will not ask him to treat kahlie as his child. i want him to do it because he wants to, not because i am demanding him to do it for my son.

i am really really proud of myself because i know i raised my son properly.. 

i will support Kahlie in whatever road he has to take."

"thank you miss Ahlie for sharing your story in our magazine"

"well it is my pleasure"

"mam, prepare na po kayo for our shoot.. okay na po ang anak mo"

"sige"

magshoshoot kami ni Kahlie for the cover of the magazine.. kakatapos ko lang sa interview.. 

"MAMA!"

napangiti naman ako nang makita si KAhlie.. terno kami ng soot.. masaya rin pala yung ganito.. pakiramdam ko, hindi ako nahihiya na single mom ako. 

yung parang proud na proud pa ako na may Kahlie ako..

agad kong niyakap si kahlie

"kahlie, you are good right?"

"yes mama"

"mamaya, magpapapicture tayo ha.. at lahat ng sasabihin nung magpipicture gagawin mo ha, pero in a natural way, yung parang hindi ka napipilitan"

"opo mama"

"that's my son!" at hinalikan ko pa sya sa noo..

*pose

 *click

*pose

*click

after 123456789 years natapos din ang photo shoot.. 

dumeretso agad kami ni kahlie sa company kase may meeting.. 

psshhh.. ayoko na dapat isama dito si kahlie kase andito na sya.