Emily:
Jeffrey runs off and I attempt to go after him but then my body freezes.
I want to go after him but I think he needs time for himself.
I just wish that everything could be okay.
I feel a stare right over my shoulder though before I can turn the person from behind walks before me, "Emily, I'm sorry."
I hold my hand under his chin to lift his face and gain eye contact. I come closer so that our faces are almost touching.
I want him to feel vulnerable.
I want him to feel false hope.
I stare at his lips then look back to his eyes, "Jonah." I continue, "I'm not sorry."
His smile grows weak and I begin again as I pull my hand from under his chin though with us still locked in an intimate position, "I'm not sorry that you feel shitty because that's all I've been feeling today. I've had a shitty day and all I've gained from seeing you again is your shitty apologies and you're selfish to think that you could ever have me back, even as a friend." I feel a tear falling at the side of my cheek.
Jonah reaches up to the side of my face to wipe the tear, "Then I'm not sorry either I just don't want to make you feel shitty anymore."
He looks at me yearning for an answer but there's nothing but silence that feels the air. Jonah looks down to my lips then closes his eyes tight in what looks like an attempt to resist.
My hand comes to rest on his face, my body flooding with guilt. His eyes shoot open in shock.
Even though I fucking hate him right now and everything he does is fucked up I can't help but to feel bad for hurting him.
I feel Jonah's hands press to either side of my waist. He pulls us closer till our chests are touching.
This is totally fucked up.
His sight set on my lips, he leans closer.
I almost want our lips to touch, to feel the familiar feel.
I just can't though and not even just for Jeffrey but also for me.
Before our lips can touch I move past his so our cheeks are pressed together and my lips are next to his ear, "Selfish son of a bitch." I pause then start again, "You actually thought and even after I told you."
