Marvel/Avengers One-Shots!

Purpose [Bucky - Song Fic]

A/N - this is my first song fic! It's based on Purpose by Justin Bieber. Enjoy!

Feeling like I'm breathing my last breath

Bucky lay in the ice, a searing pain where his left arm used to be. His breath comes out in visual puffs against the arctic air, his body slowing freezing from the outside in.

Feeling like I'm walking my last steps

Only an hour previously, he had been fighting side by side with Steve. Steve was his partner since the beginning, and was there 'til the end.

Look at all of these tears I've wept

The pain of the HYDRA machine delving into his deepest memories. Wiping all he'd tried so hard to remember. Birthdays, life lessons, friends and family.. All gone. The pain tears through his skull, bringing the numb sting of tears to his oceanic eyes.

Look at all the promises that I've kept

"I'm with you till the end of the line"

A/n - I'm cutting out this chorus to save it until the end.

Thinking my journey's come to an end, sending out a farewell to my friends, forever peace

Laying in the snow he silently said his goodbyes as he waited for the inevitability of death.
Goodbye, parents.
Goodbye, comrades.
Goodbye, Steve..

Ask you to forgive me for my sins, oh would you please?

It wasn't him. It wasn't his choice. He pleads for forgiveness for what he was forced to do.

I'm more than grateful for the time we spent

Steve had saved him from HYDRA, taken him back home, and that's where he met her.

my spirit's at ease I put my heart into your hands

He fell for her. He learned to trust her, and she trusted him.

Learn the lessons you teach no matter when, wherever I am you're not hard to reach

She taught him all he now knows.
- Re-learning simple things that were long wiped from his memory.
- New things that did not exist in the 40s.
- How to trust.
- How to love.
She was always there to help.

And you've given me the best gift that I've ever known, you give me purpose everyday you give me purpose in every way

She taught him how to carry on. Gave him reason to. He lived to see her happy. He lived to keep her safe. He lived.

Oh, you are my everything...Oh, you are my everything

He didn't leave the house.. Their house.
She was the only person he saw, the only contact he received. He wasn't ready for this world, yet. She was literally all he had.

I don't know if this is wrong because someone else is telling me that it's wrong

Everyone says she's stupid to stay with him. He can't love her. Is an assassin even capable of love?
He doubts himself because everyone tells him he should.

But I feel this

He knows he loves her. He knows what he feels.
He's not sure of many things anymore, but he's sure of that.

so let me just like, try my best not to let this happen again

He doesn't want to relapse anymore. He's sick of putting her through that but he's trying his hardest. He hopes it doesn't happen again.

We weren't necessarily put in the best position to make the best decisions.

He wasn't himself, he didn't make those decisions. His brain wasn't right. He wasn't right.

You can't be hard on yourself for these were the cards that you were given so you have to understand that

That was his fate - the hand he was dealt. He was meant to be captured by HYDRA. After all, he wouldn't have met her otherwise. He would be an old man, his life would be completely different.

That's not who you are

The Winter Soldier. That's not him. He doesn't want to hurt people.

You're trying to be the best you can be but that's all you can do

He really tries his hardest for her. To show her he can be a normal person, a normal boyfriend.

If you don't give it all you got, you're only cheating yourself give it all you got

He gives himself pep-talks in the mirror, telling himself he can pull through this.. For her. It's always for her.

But if it ends up happening, it ends up happening.That's what's happening with me

Sometimes he can't help it, he can't stop it. Whenever it happens, whenever he relapses, he can't help but feel guilt.
She has to put up with it. She has to put up with him.
But she loves him, so she does.

It's like God I'm giving it all I got, sometimes I'm weak and I'm gonna do it, and it's like I'm not giving myself grace
I'm just like understanding, that's just how it is.

It's all for her.

It's all for you.