Do I Deserve This? *On Hold*

chapter 4-guilt

hey guys i finally updated. ......vote.and comment what u think of issac and jacob.is issac really that. woth it?anyways. byeeeeee

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i stand at my locker doing the usual switching of the books thinking about Jacob.would i get beat daily if i would've stayed with him?

speaking of Isaac..he usually gives my space after a beating.....the usual apology and a whole bunch of sweets.do i deserve this?i dont know.but One day things will be different.

the last few days have been spent with Danni. she'd walk me to class and occasionally ask if i'm ok.after my food fight with Jacob a couple days ago he walked me to my house abd u haven't seen him since.

there was a tap on my shoulder and i turn around to come face to face with Isaac. when he looks at my face a flash a guilt goes through his eyes and his face softens.

"listen.....I'm sooooo sorry."he says stroking my cheek with his thumb.i dont say anything i just stare into his beautiful green eyes.his eyes flash down to my lips and back to my eyes before smashing his lips onto mine.it was perfect.i know it shouldnt be but I'm in love. he starts kissing down my neck and a moan escapes my lips.he looks up and smirks.i bite my bottom lip.thats the same smirk i fell in love with.then he goes back to kissing me.

"i love you"he says kissing along my. collar bone.

"i love you too."in the two years i've been with Isaac he's never cheated. and i never did cheat on him....he just didnt trust me.then the scene with jacob came to mind....and while this boy is sitting here kissing me with passion i think about jacob.because i did on friday night in my bedroom.then i thought to myself....maybe i do deserve this.

issac was my first love. i mean....he took my virginity.

Isaac. .....it was all him.but it seems jacob was always there for me.

but.....was i always there for them?......