Mute

Chapter 8

I roll over and I feel someone next to me. I panic and roll over to see who the hell is in my bed with me. I see Justin's perfect face, and where not in my bed. Where in the tree house. Justin's chest rises then falls as he breaths. I smile at him as he sleeps then realization hits me. Me and Justin slept together! My parents are going to kill me. Dads going to call me a slut again, but I'm not a slut. I didn't mean to sleep with him I was just so tired I couldn't stay awake. My mind is in panic and I shake Justin awake. “Whats wrong babe?” Justin asks sleepily. Awww he called me babe. Wait! That's not the point right now. Justin jolts up and looks at me in panic. “We slept together,” Justin says. I nod my head and he looks at me. My parents I sign. “Oh god,” Justin groans and flops his face into his pillow. “Your parents are going to hate me,” Justin says as he rolls onto his back. No they wont I sign. “Yes they will,” Justin groans as he face palms himself. I smile at him and I move his hand away from his face. They will be mad at me, If I'm lucky my mom will understand I sign. My mom and me are very close, I don't know what I would do with out her. Me and my father on the other hand, well that's different. When I was little I was his little princess then he became a alcoholic and everything changed. I became the thing that got in his way, the thing he took his anger out on occasionally. “I'm so sorry I feel asleep toward the end of the movie and never woke back up. I didn't wake back up till you woke me up,” Justin says. It's ok I sign. “Tell your parents you crashed on my couch and I was on the floor,” Justin says. I will if they ask I sign. “I really hope they don't hate me or get mad at you,” Justin says. I run my hand through his messy hair and he smiles at me. “One good thing came out of this though,” Justin says. I raise my eyebrow and look at him. What I sign. “The first thing I got to see was your beautiful face,” Justin says. I smile at him and lean down and kiss him. The morning air is cold and I wrap up in the blanket. “Maybe we should get home,” Justin say. I nod my head and we climb out of the tree house. Justin gently grabs my hand and hold it as we walk to my house. My parents will be at work by now so I should be safe. I could probably just tell my parents I came home late while they were sleeping and they would believe it. “So I though maybe we could go to the costume party as army soldiers,” Justin says. I nod my head agreeably and look at Justin. Him as a army soldier, excuses me but that's going to be hot. “I'll look for the costumes today,” Justin says. We get to the end of my drive way and I kiss Justin goodbye. “I will see you Monday,” Justin says. I smile at him then he walks towards his house. I run to my house and open the door. I close it behind me and go to my room and flop right into my bed. Ugh I wish I had more comfortable clothes on. I get up and go over to my clothes I slip on pajama pants and a tank top. My stomach growls and I walk down the stairs and go into the kitchen. I open the cabinet and grab a poptart. I shove it in the toaster and wait for it to pop. The smell of strawberry fills my nose and my stomach growls. I lean closer and closer to the toaster to smell the poptart's and then it pops. I jump back nearly fall straight to my butt. After I get over the heart attack scare the toaster gave me I grab my poptart's and put them on a plate. I walk into the living room and sit in the couch. I turn the TV on and look through all the channels. I finally settle on watch Criminal Minds. I eat my poptart and watch TV when the front door bangs open. I jump and fall off the couch. When I get up I see mom walk into the living room. “What do you mean?” Mom asks as she hold a phone to her ear. “Your lieing,” Mom sobs. I get up and I walk over to her. I cock my head to the side and she holds her finger up to me. “Just help him please I'm begging. I want my baby boy back,” Mom says. A little while later mom hangs up the phone and pulls me into a hug. I hug her back as cries shake through her body. Her silk blouse is cold under my hands as I rub her back. I step away from her and she wipes her tears. Whats wrong I sign. “Mason tired again to kill himself. They want to keep him for two more weeks,” Mom says. Please tell me your lieing I sign as tears form in my eyes. “I wish I was baby I wish I was,” Mom says as she pulls me into a hug. I cry and cry as my mom holds me. I want my baby brother back. I don't want him to have to go through the crap I do. Killing myself has come up in my mind so many times, I never did it though. Mom held me till I finally stop then she kisses me on the cheek. “There going to help him I promise. I will keep him in counseling to. Every Wednesday night he will meet with a counselor,” Mom says. Good I sign. “Can you do me a favor?” Mom asks. Anything I sign. “Your brother is close to you and will talk to you, if he ever needs anyone to talk to please help him,” Mom says. Of course I sign. “So did you and Justin go to the flag football game?” Mom asks. Yeah I sign lieing. “Did you have fun?” Mom asks as she walks into the kitchen to make coffee. I nod my head then flop back onto the couch. My phone buzzes and I search for it. A glisten of a blue beat up phone, due to many times of dropping it while skating, on the floor. I pick it up and read a text from Justin. I'm trying out for the football team with Sam on Monday, please be there it reads. I'll be there I text back and I set my phone on the side table. I get up and get a cup of coffee. I put two packs of sugar and creamer in it. “Do you want to have a movie day like we would do when you were little?” Mom asks. I nod my head and I walk over to the couch. I set my coffee next to my phone and my mom sits next to me. Mom pulls a blanket up around us and I lay my head on her shoulder. Mom turns the TV on and we buy a movie and watch it, and that is how we spend are day.