Mute

Chapter 5

When i wake up i roll over to see what time it is and its ten so i get out of bed and go straight to the bathroom. I yank a brush through my hair then i brush my teeth. I then go to my room and do my hair and make up. I go to my closet and yank some clothes out not knowing what the hell to wear. I put three outfits together and i look at each of then. I could go with the floral skirt with the white shirt which is very cute but then again the denim short shorts with the black long sleeve crop top is cute. I look at my last outfit and i slip it on. 

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"Emma are you awake yet," my mom shouts. She has hopes that one day that i will talk again and she thinks that by talking to me while I'm up stairs that i will answer her, i won't but she can keep wishing. "Emma you need to get up," my mom says as she walks in and sees the top I'm wearing. "Showing off your tan today i see," she says noting that my stomach is showing with my shirt. I laugh at her wanting to say no duh i can't tell at all that my stomach is showing, but I'm not going to say anything. "Come down stairs and eat breakfast," she says. We walk down stairs and i sit at the table. "Your going on a date with Justin today," Mason says. How do you know about that i sign. "He texted me," Mason says. "Your going on a date with Justin," my mom says. I nod my head yes and she smiles. "This is awesome, Justin is a good boy unlike your last boyfriend," my mom says. "Honey she did that all to herself," my dad says. "No she didn't," Mason says. "She was the one who dated the boy knowing what he did," my dad says. The memory's of the night there talking about floods back into my mind, that was the night i lost my virginity. It was all because of him, he raped me. When my parents found out that were so mad at me. My mom then trusted me that he had raped me but my dad believes that i was the one who wanted to have sex. My mom sets my food down in front of me and i eat it slowly. "So Mason how are you feeling," my mom asks. "Good i don't think I'm sick anymore," Mason says. I know he isn't fine or good because if he was fine he wouldn't be cutting. What would make him cut? I mean he says he has a good life, good family, and a good time at school so why would he cut. It makes no sense. None at all. I mean i would understand if he was in my place and cut since I'm nonstop bullied but as far as i know he isn't. I look at him as he tugs his long sleeve shirt sleeve down more so that you can't see any of his arm only his hands. I get up from the table and i walk outside and to my backyard where my swing set from when i was little still stands. I walk over to one of the swings and sit down. Is Mason being bullied? Is he cutting because of the death of his girlfriend? Is something wrong? Emma don't be stupid i think to myself as i face palm myself. Of course something is wrong people don't just cut for no reason. Should i tell someone? I mean i know i should but i don't want to hurt him. Wait! How in the hell would that hurt him it would help him. I get up and walk inside and i find Mason in the living room talking with my parents. I walk up to him and yank his sleeves up. "Emma," Mason shouts. Are parents look at him in shock at what they see and my mom starts crying. "Mason," mom sobs. "What the hell is wrong with you that would make you want to do that?" dad asks. "Just shit in life," Mason says as he gets up and walks out the door. "Emma go get him," mom says. I run after my brother and grab his shoulder and turn him to look at me. Why i sign. "I'm being bullied and its hurtful stuff," Mason says. Like what i sign. "Because of my girlfriend and how she killed herself," Mason says then walks away.

I sat at the swing set till around two then i walked to Justin's. When i got there Justin was waiting outside for me and i walked up to him and hugged him as i bursted into tears. "What wrong," Justin asks. Mason i sign. "Is he ok?" Justin asks. I shake my head no and Justin pulls me into another hug and rubs my back. "Do you still want to go on the date?" Justin asks. I nod my head yes and Justin lets me go. "Do you like picnics?" Justin asks. I nod my head yes with a smile on my face. "Wait right here," Justin says as he turns around and runs inside. When he comes back he has a picnic basket and he links arms with me. "Lets go lovey," Justin says as he wraps a blinkfold around my eyes. We walk and i trust Justin not to lead me into a tree and when we stop Justin puts his mouth next to my ear. "Wait here for a second," Justin whispers. I hear Justin doing something then he comes over to me and takes the blindfold off. We are right in front of are tree house and Justin has a blanket spread on the ground with a lamp next to and some food. Thank you i sign. I am going mute for this date with you Justin signs. I smile at him and give him a hug. You are the best i sign. So are you Justin signs. We sit down and eat and when were done we lay back in the blanket and wait for the sun to set. What do you want to do for the Halloween costume for the party i sign. What ever you want Justin signs. Are we dating i sign. Do you want to be Justin signs. Yes i sign. Then were dating Justin signs. As Justin stays laying down i sit up on my elbow and i kiss Justin and he kisses back. I love you Justin signs. I love you to i sign. We stay there till it gets dark then Justin walks me to my house. I hug him then he leaves. When i walk in the door my parents and Mason are no where to be seen. There is a note on the table and i walk over to it and read it. We took Mason to get help be home when we can it reads. I lay it down and go to my room and flop into bed and fall right to sleep. 

I wake up at 11 to the door slamming shut and my dad is shouting at my mom. "If it wasn't for Emma going mute Mason wouldn't be like this," dad shouts. "Its not her fault you told her not to talk because she never says anything smart," mom shouts. "Don't you dare blame her going mute on me," my dad shouts and stomps up the steps. I get up from my bed and go to go down stairs to get something to drink and my dad staggers into my room defiantly drunk. "Stop dressing like a slut," dad says then staggers away. I give him the finger then i walk down stairs. Wheres Mason i sign. "Hes in therapy," mom says. I get a cup of water and my mom sits down at the table. "Why would he cut?" mom asks. Well you know that i know he told you i sign. "His life was perfect," mom says. He was getting bullied how perfect is that i sign getting pissed. "Its not that bad to make you cut," mom says. Being bullied is hurtful as all fuck i sign. "How would you know your not being bullied," mom says. Yes i am every damn day of my life i sign then walk up to my room and slam my bedroom door and lock it. I slide down the door and cry my eyes out. Am i really such a slut? Am i really that stupid? What the hell did i do to deserve this damn life. "Honey." mom says from the other side of the door. I turn around and bash my fist into the door. I lay on the floor and cry myself to sleep.