Mute

Chapter 6

My alarm clock wakes me up at the same time as usual and i get up from the floor and walk over to it and turn it off. I hate alarm clocks waking me up when i don't want to be. Stupid ass thing. I go into the bathroom and take care of everything i need to then i go to my room and do my hair and make up. What should i wear today? I look in my closet and find my pink hello kitty tank top and i take it out of my closet and set it on my bed. I find a black bralet and denim shorts and i put it on. I slip the tank top on then i put on my pink converse and a bracelet.

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I look in the mirror then head down stairs. "Morning," mom says. I smile at her as i get something to eat. "Did you have any homework for over the weekend?" mom asks. I shake my head no as i sit down and start eating. "Mason will be out of therapy on Sunday," mom says. I sit there finishing eating and when I'm done i grab my backpack and walk outside to Justin. When i get to then end of my drive way we start are walk to my living hell. "Hey wheres Mason?" Justin asks. Therapy i sign. "Really, how did your parents find out?" Justin asks. I showed them i sign. "Good it was the best thing to do you know that, right" Justin says as he puts his arm around my shoulder. My dad says i dress like a slut i sign. "You don't dress like a slut at all, you dress like a princess," Justin says. I give him a weird look and he starts laughing. "You don't dress like a slut and nor are you a slut," Justin says as he squeezes my shoulder. "I can't wait to tell everyone at the school that you are my beautiful girlfriend," Justin says. People might make fun of you i sign. "Who the hell cares as long as your my girlfriend then I'm good," Justin says. I smile then kiss his cheek. Do you think that I shouldn't have kissed you yesterday i sign. "Did you feel right doing it?" Justin asks. Yeah i sign. "I agree with it i love you so much already, from the moment i meet you I knew I had to make you mine," Justin says. I love you so much already to you are my other half i sign. "Do you want to go out on Friday?" Justin asks. Yeah but where i sign. "I'm not telling you," Justin says. But i want to know i sign. "Well you will just have to wait," Justin says. Fine i sign. We finish are walk to school and we walk to are lockers. "See you in math," Justin says as he walks to his locker far down the hall. "Hey fat whore you going to go cry because you have two classes till math," the prissy bitch that pulled up in her car a couple days ago to get Justin to come with her says. I get the stuff i need and go to walk away but she shoves me into the lockers. "You know my name right," she says. I shake my head no and she looks at her group of barbies. "She doesn't know my name," she says. Well no fucking shit i think to myself. "Guess my name," she says. Crazy phyco bitch i sign. "What the hell was that," she laughs. "Oh wait she wont tell you what it was because she is a speechless cunt," one of her barbie like friends say. "My name is Jade and i will get Justin away from you hes mine so back the fuck off hoe," Jade says as she shoves me hardly into the lockers. As her and her group of barbies walk away laughing slide down to the ground. I pull my phone out and text Mason. Hey I'm allowed to text for a little while a text from Mason says. Me and Justin are dating i send. He doesn't reply so i walk to my first class and sit down in the back of the class.

"Emma," Justin shouts from down the hall as i head to my locker to get my stuff for math. I turn around and see Justin walk up to me and he kisses me in front of everyone. I smile at him as he gets my stuff for class out of my locker. "Hows your day so far?" Justin asks. The normal i sign. A guy walks by and shoves me to the ground. Justin helps me right up and gives the guy that shoved me down the finger. "You ok?" Justin asks. I nod my head yes then Justin takes my hand in his and we walk to math hand in hand. When we get there we go to the back of the class and sit down next to each other. "We need to know what we are dressing up as for Halloween by next month since next month is October," Justin says. What do you want to go as i write. "What ever you chose," Justin says. Ok i write. "Class today we are doing book work," the teacher says. "What page do we open to," Jade asks. "Page 100," the teacher says. Me and Justin get to work so we can get it over with since we both hate math. "Mason never did tell me why he cut," Justin whispers. His girlfriend killed herself in there first year of high school i write. The phone rings and the teacher gets up to answer it. "Emma you are needed in the office," the teacher says. I get up and i walk down to the office. When i get there the lady sits at her desk waiting for me. "Your mom would like to speak to you about your brother," she says. I give the lady one of those really looks and she hands the phone to me. I hand it back and she looks at me. I don't talk i sign. "Oh," the lady says. She talks to my mom then hangs the phone up. "She said she will wait to talk to you till she gets home from work," the lady says. I nod then leave the office and head back to class. I sit down at my seat and Justin looks at me. My mom said she had to talk to me about Mason i write. "Is he ok?" Justin asks. I don't know i write. I'm worried about him i write. "Me to," Justin says. When class is over we go to are lockers and drop are stuff off then we head to lunch. "I can't wait for Friday," Justin says. Me to i sign. "Hey there slut," some guy says as he shoves me. I keep walking then we finally get there and find a table and we sit down. "Justin come here," Justin's friend Sam shouts. "Be right back," Justin says as he gets up. He walks over to Sam then someone comes up behind me and pours water on me. I stand up and turn around to see who it is and its one of Jades barbie friends. "Take that you stupid ass ratchet bitch go suck some random guys cock like you always do," she says before she shoves me and i fall over the chair almost cracking my head on the ground. I get up and walk out of the cafeteria and walk to my locker even though lunch just started. I get my stuff for next class and start to head to it but Justin comes running up to me. "What happen?" Justin asks. I sit down with my back on the wall and Justin does the same. I didn't want to take anymore shit at lunch so i left i sign. "Well then I'm staying right here with you," Justin says. Thanks i sign.   

Finally its the end of the day and i pack everything i need in my back pack and wait for Justin. "Emo bitch," someone shouts as they throw paper balls at me. I just stand there and let they throw paper balls at me but thank god Justin finally comes. "Hey there," Justin says. I hold his hand and we walk home. "I have a ton of homework so I'm going to go get that done," Justin says as we get to my driveway. I kiss him then we both walk to are houses. I open the door then slam it shut. I'm sick and tired of people pushing me around. The bully's never physically hurt me till this year. I rub my arms and notice my elbows are bruising from when i was shoved over the chair. I sit down at the table and do my homework and my mom walks in the door. "We need to talk," mom says. I close my social studies book since i am done homework and put all my stuff away. "Your brother tried to kill himself last night before we took him to get help," mom says. Tears start falling from my eyes and i get up from the table and go to my room. I close the door and lay down on my bed slowly as i cry my eyes out. I let every tear i have held in today come out. My mom walks in and sit down on my bed and she rubs my back as she starts crying. "He will get better," mom says. I lay there not knowing what to do now and me and  my mom sit there and cry. Mason i miss you little bro, I hope you get better seeing the cuts all over his arm hurts. I wonder if he knows how much it hurt me to see them. I want to ask if it actually is my fault that Mason was cutting but i don't i don't feel like writing or using sign language right now. When we stop crying i sit up and hug my mom and she hugs me back. "I love you so much and i know you love me to," mom says. I nod my head yes as she lets go of me.