Shadows Of My Heart

Finding Myself

What is the point in living,

When all I want is to die?

To leave behind the pain and sorrow,

That is my everyday life,

No-one can understand the pain that I feel inside,

I have been abused and broken,

Time and time again,

Someone always fixes me just for their own gain,

My hearts as black as a withered rose,

Crying the bloody tears,

Streaming all the hurt and anger away,

My life is just one big failure,

One after another,

Every guy that I have been with,

Has turned cruel to me,

Possessive, Controlling, Clingy, Rapist,

All sum up my past lovers,

They believe they own me,

That I am nothing but their shiny new toy,

For them to play with and break then throw away,

But not anymore,

Now I am stronger than ever,

I know that I don't have to put up with this,

I don't need to let them abuse me,

Hurt me,

Someone that has been hidden behind a mask,

A meek scared little girl that gets abused,

But from now on, I am me.