Shit, I'm Falling For A Weasley || George Weasley

Chapter Twenty Six - Argent vs Fowler (Part 1)

*** FLASH FORWARD ONE YEAR***

The hatred in his eyes is so clear. At least that's what I think it is. Or is it confusion? I don't know, it doesn't matter. What matters is that there's no hiding anymore. The monster is out and ready to play. It's time for me to stop hiding who I really am. It's time he finds out. 

His eyes haven't left mine. They're hard and blocking the emotions that are probably wanting to spill out. I'm probably the mirror image of him. Who knew that we would end up in this position like this? I honestly thought I could protect him for longer. That I could be both people, Argent and Fowler. But I can't. If only he knew how much I tried for his sake. I tried to be both people. I tried to be good and tame the monster, but I just couldn't help it in the end. It's like I constantly had a battle with myself as to who I wanted to be - Argent or Fowler? 

My black dress sways in the wind as I take a deep breath. The mark is clear on my arm now. Who was I kidding thinking that I could hide it? No one else recognised me, well no one but him. 

"Well, what will it be?" I ask my voice sharp. He just stares at me. Huh. For once, I guess I've made him speechless. It's like he's calculating what he should do by trying to figure out what I'll do. Well good luck, because even I don't know what I'm going to do. The wars almost over- the climax is coming. The final battle. And for once I find myself unsure if I'm on the right side, if I made the right decision, if I just wasted a year. I've got nothing to lose. Not even he can stop me from what I'm going to do, even though I can tell he wants nothing more than to stop me- even if it means certain death. He's made his choice. 

"There's no going back Argent. Not after this," he says with his tone matching mine. I blink as a part of me falters for a second. No, I made my choice. If I do this I'm going to lose him forever. But if I don't then everything I have done to this day will be for nothing. I can't let him dictate my choices anymore- I let go of all that a long time ago anyways. 

A part of me always knew that I could never really forget him but maybe we wouldn't be in this position if I could. Then no one would have to get hurt. No one would have to die. This is it. I know what I'm going to do. I know what I have to do. 

"My name is not Argent." I say in a low voice with a grim smile. Surprise flickers across his face and I know that there is definitely no going back after this. Was it all for nothing? All the memories we shared, everything? When it all meant that we would end up in this position, fighting on opposite sides, not able to understand why. 

I throw my wand on the ground, I never really need it anyways. My redheaded demon sent to taunt me because of my decisions. To test me. Well I've always known what I would do in such a situation- now it's time to see if I'm true to my word.

"My name is Lily Fowler and you  are about to see what happens to those who attack a Fowler," I say bitterly shutting off all my emotions as the flames stream through my hand. I watch as they hit his body, his eyes finally dropping their barriers and the pure shock outlined as he limps on the ground. 

My eyes shut as the tears finally escape from my eyes as I fall to my knees. I've lost him. 

I... lost. 

***PRESENT DAY***

"You doing okay?" Ginny asks causing me to jump. I look up from my Transfiguration essay and give her a grim smile.

"She doesn't want us to have any time to ourselves!" I mutter annoyed. It's like all the professors have realised that OWLs are coming up soon and not many of us seem bothered or prepared. I glance at a frizzled looking Hermione and sigh, well all but one of us that's for sure. Her two sidekicks seem to be equally frazzled and it just proves how the fifth years are being worked so hard, we don't even know what to do with ourselves. But actually, I'm quite happy with it all. It means that I get to enjoy a bit more normalcy before I have to start my mission.