Life And After

i need an adjective

I don't understand this feeling
It makes me smile
For no reason

I laugh
Out loud
I don't do that often

I blush
I giggle
I talk more

I think its good
Maybe

I feel less insecure
I'm glad

I think it's because of you
Maybe it is

I hope so
Just don't feel bad if I cry

If it ends
If you accidently hurt me

I don't want you to think it's your fault

I'm weak
I'm pathetic

You make me strong
And confident

And you are the only one that does that to me

I don't try to make a scene
Or cause trouble
I just do
Especially when I'm around you

I'm happy
Yes
Happy

No
Joyful really
Elated

Its a feeling I just can't describe
It drives me crazy
I don't have the right adjective

You know I need to be able to
Describe things

I have issues with it

But I know its from you
It always has been
Its just hard to say so
If we aren't together

So I waited
For now
For this time
A time that we could be together

I now know you can maybe understand

But you make me so happy
I don't have words

So listen
I'm glad we met
Became friends
And now
More

Thank you

So much

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This is for a certain person. She knows who she is. I won't know if she will ever read this or not. All I know is that she inspired me. Made me happy. And now... I don't know. I guess I will just see how things go. Well she still makes me smile but we aren't a thing anymore. Oh well. That just how life is I guess. Short lived and slightly joyful.