June 21, 2013.
Today is the first day of summer. Well, night, since it's already almost 10 p.m. But you get the point. Is it bad that I kind of miss school? I mean, at least it kept me occupied long enough to not sink into my dark, depressing thoughts. I actually miss the teachers more than the students. My language arts teacher always noticed when I was sad and it made me happy to know that someone realized I wasn't okay. She taught me many valuable lessons that I'll cherish forever. I'm starting to sound corny now, sorry.
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Tomorrow I'm going to my dads. My mom and her boyfriend are going out somewhere, again. I can already tell this summer's going to suck; and here's why.
•My mom has to work all summer.
•All of my friends are pretty much busy.
•My pools not even open yet.
•We don't have enough money to go anywhere.
•My moms probably going to go out every saturday.
You see why I hate summer now? I know I shouldn't be complaining, I know that I have it much better than most people, but I can never find a reason to smile. I'm ashamed. I hate myself for being so selfish and not being able to see the bright side of things.
If only I could be happy. Things will turn around soon, maybe. That's what I keep telling myself.
Anyways, have a good first night of summer friend, I'll write again soon.
