June 27, 2013.
Dear whomever,
It's currently 11:43 p.m and I'm sad; which is why I'm writing to you.
It's hard to believe that it's almost July. My aunt's having a party Saturday and my friend and I go every year so that's something I'm looking forward to.
My pools not open yet and that sucks. Lately iv'e just been reading and writing poetry all day because I have nothing better to do. I just finished reading a fan fiction and I don't know what to do with my life anymore.
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I've been going to bed past twelve every night. A few days ago I went to bed at 5 a.m and slept until 9 a.m. So I got a total of four hours of sleep and I wasn't even tired at all. I went to bed at around one the day after that. Then I went to bed at like three the next night, and around three again yesterday.I know that I don't have a very healthy sleeping schedule but whatever, it's summer. I find myself unable to sleep a lot, so I just listen to music and write until I get tired.
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I still have to go to counseling every Tuesday. I wish my mom would just let me talk to her instead of telling all of my problems to some stranger. We've made some progress, or so I'm told. Honestly, there's no progress; I'm just a great actress. I know I'm screwed up, but do they honestly think that they can fix me? Pathetic.
I just can't wait until I'm done with counseling for good.
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I think I like someone, but I'm not completely sure. It's just the feeling I get when we talk and the way my stomach flips when he says my name. It's the way he knows how to make me feel better and the way we can talk about anything without it being weird. The down side? Distance. And when I say distance, I mean a lot of distance. Nothing good ever happens to me anyways, I should be used to it.
Well, I'm gonna go back to pouring my thoughts into poetry, goodnight dear friend.
