I've been in the hospital for about two and a half weeks, time just seems to be standing still and I'm ready to leave. Derek wants me to come to his house to stay with him but with how complicated everything is I'm just going to go back to Ivan's. Nancy's been spending a lot of time at the house and is even bringing in another doctor for a second opinion. This doctor should be able to provide more information about what is going on. He will be coming to check out Ivan in 3 weeks.
Ivan's been in a coma for way too long. Even though I'm confused about who I belong with I still want him to wake up. He's missed so much. I need to tell him everything.
Derek's been visiting everyday. Nancy is not too fond of him. In fact they've butted heads several more times during their visits. Brad eventually told her to stop coming here.
The doctor comes in ready to discharge me. He hands me a list of instructions on the care for my leg. I still have 4 more weeks till I get this thing off. The nurse comes in and helps me get dressed. My mom brought me a skirt to wear since getting pants over my cast will not happen. She even brought me knee high socks to keep my other leg warm. After getting dressed the nurse helps me sit in the wheelchair and wheels me out to the lobby. Derek is standing there and smiles.
"I thought Courtney was coming to get me?" I ask.
"She had something import to get done so I offered." He says helping me stand taking my crutches from the nurse.
"Take care Bella!" The nurse says as Derek helps me into his car.
"Bye Valerie! Thanks to everything!" I wave.
Derek gets in the car and turns to me. "Are you hungry?"
"Actually yeah."
"Want to go for pizza?" He asks.
"Pizza sounds good."
We head to the local pizza joint and sit down to order. We order a white pizza with spinach and chicken on it, my favorite. Derek reaches in his pocket pulling out a phone.
"Here. I wanted to give this to you since your phone was destroyed in the wreck."
"Wow thanks Derek. You didn't have too."
"No it's fine. I want to be able to talk to you." He says.
We finish eating and Derek helps me to the car. We head toward Ivan's and I can tell he has a lot on his mind.
Reaching over to hold his hand I ask. "What's wrong?"
"I hate that this all happened to you and I hate that I have to take you back to him. I'm trying to be patient Ella but I don't know how much longer I can be. Everything's that happened has been because of him."
"Derek I'm ok. I'm going to be fine."
"You lost your baby!" He's frustrated now.
"Do you feel this?" I ask.
"Yes."
"That's me. That's my flesh. I'm here."
"Not for long." He says pulling his hand away.
"What do you mean?"
"Come on Ella...as soon as he wakes up you'll be right back with him."
"That's not true!" I begin to cry, feeling like he's pushing me away."I do want him to wake up, I do want to tell him everything, but there really never was a me and him. That ship sank before we could sail."
He reaches over and wipes the tears rolling down my cheeks. "Ella I'm sorry. I didn't want to make you cry."
I sob even harder because here is this man next to me who has been so kind and has been here everyday for me feeling like I'm just going to shove him aside when I don't want too. I want scream at him. I want him to never doubt me!
