Dearest Jayden,

Just For The Lols

December 9, 2015

Dearest Jayden,

You once asked me, "Why does the world just go 'Lets make these people so far away just for the lols".  And I feel that statement was incredibly accurate to what happens in the world. We arte in two different countries. I know it hurts sometimes, but we make it work. Hell I'm writing to you on Wattpad!! I mean for fucks sake we make it work! A country is just a country, its not an ocean, its not a planet. Honestly we could be a galaxy away and I'd find a way to make it work. If you ever feel sad my love, please read these letters. I know at night I can't be with you, and you can't be with me. But one day things will be different! I truly believe that. 

Last night as I was laying down, trying to sleep, I thought of you. And I imagined what our life will one day be like. I imagined holding you as you fall asleep just holding you because I can. And honestly the thought made me smile. I seriously think I fell asleep smiling. That would be weird.

So this trans guy who is my age was supposed to come over and spend the night on Sunday cause its my birthday, kinda, and he wont be because his boyfriend bitched and wanted him to spend the night at his house. I dont mind much anyways I'd much rather have you spend the night on my (kinda) birthday. I'll be dying my hair tho so if you wanna see it tell me because I'll send you a picture lol. Anyways Jayden I love you.

I hope I make you smile, because seeing your smile would make my day. One day maybe I'll make you smile. Because that would truly be an honor. I love you Jayden.

Btw lowkey gonna start calling you lovey just because. lol Kay LOve you.