This Love - Emblem3 FanFic

"Im proud of you"

Wes' P.O.V :

There was only two more hours until the first live show and to say I was nervous was an understatement.

I had been running the song over and over in my head, it seemed perfectly fine, but it didn't feel perfectly fine.

"Dude it's fine, honestly" Drew said trying to make me feel better.

"Fines not good enough" I snap back.

"Breathe stromberg, it'll be ok, just get some sleep I'll wake you up in an hour"

Sleep was tempting but I had to nail this. "Ok" is all I said.

I walked off telling Drew I was going to get some sleep before the show but really I'm going to find a quiet place to figure this song out.

"Wes, you ok?" Simon says stopping me.

I put a smile on to please my mentor "yeah I'm chill, why you ask?"

"You look a bit lost with yourself, are you sure everything's ok?"

"Well to be honest, I'm shit scared for tonight and I'm not feeling this song, like it's not the song, the song is great, it's just my head isn't into it like it usually is"

Simon smiles at me and chuckles a bit. "You've been a bit stressed this past week haven't you Wesley?"

It was almost a rhetorical question.

"I guess you could say that"

"Just remember tonight, when you sing, sing what you want, not what the audience wants. This performance is yours so you have to make it yours"

His words really sunk into me. I have to take it and make it mine.

Take it and make it mine.

"Thanks, I needed that" I breathe.

He places a hand in my shoulder "I believe in you and the other boys, I'm counting on you, I know you can do it"

I give a slight smile. Simon walks off leaving me to gather myself and figure out what to do next. It's not like the studio is a boring place either, it has all the musical instruments I could ever want and more. There are memories everywhere just waiting to be made. Pretty much everywhere I looked there was something to do.

But there was nothing I wanted to do.

I had found that in this past week, I'd been more lost than ever. It's hard, acting like everything is ok when it's not. I don't know if you know what it's like to act like everything's fine in front of the one person you love the most in this world when in actual fact nothing's fine. Nothing will ever be fine.

Unless you have them.

"Wes?"

"Mmm?"

"You ok?"

I look up and see Jennel Garcia standing in front of me.

"Great"

"Well, you don't look to great" she says sitting next to me.

I didn't even realise I had dragged myself to the stage area. I'm sitting in the stands a few rows up right in the middle.

"I'm just nervous"

"Sure you are, we all are, just remember why you're here Wes"

"Yeah I know, I'll get over this soon"

I didn't know if I was talking about the show or Ella. Probably Ella. Would I ever get over this?

"You'll get through this, I know it" Jennel says and then she gets up and leaves me to dwell on my thoughts.