This Love - Emblem3 FanFic

"Don't ever change"

*YOU HAVE TO READ ALL OF THE AUTHORS NOTE AT THE END ITS VERY IMPORTANT. oh and yeah this chapter is quite back and forth but i hope you like it!!*

Sometimes in life we do things we never thought we'd do.

Sometimes in life we do things we always expected to do.

I don't know. I didn't think I would be coming to this day. Ever. I wanted to but I didn't actually think it would happen.

I didn't I'd forgive my dad and brother for leaving.

I didn't think I'd leave high school before graduation because of a job opportunity.

I didn't think I'd fall head over heels in love.

But I did.

I remember being 13 and looking at a picture of the Princeton campus and instantly knowing I'd go there. I remember planning my life out from there.

I pick my suitcase up from my room and take it with me downstairs. I quickly take one last look at my room. I remember the times playing with Lego in the middle of the floor. I remember the constant company of Carter here. I remember myself sitting at my desk in the corner, hunched over my textbook and studying. I remember the dirty towels I would drop to the floor after coming back from the beach. Mum used to get so angry.

I remember the lonely nights I spent in here reading my books or doing my art.

The most important memories to me I remember in exact detail.

I remember when Wes first kissed me in my room while I was sitting on my bed.

I remember how I was crying over something so stupid one night and Wes lightly kissed me and held me till I stopped. Then he stayed with me the night.

Those times he snuck through my window were probably some of the best times of my life. Just the way I would lie on the bed with my head on his chest and he would play with my hair and tell me stupid stories and make me giggle. Then Bernie would come and lick his face and he'd make a disgusted noise but secretly find it cute.

I smile at the memories and close my bedroom door.

I was greeted by every one of my family members when I got downstairs. After breakfast Luke and Jordan pick up my bags and take them to the car. I wasn't really following anything I just let my legs carry me to where ever they needed to go an right now that was the back seat of Nicole's car.

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"Can I join you?" a boy with brown hair asks as he comes to sit down next to me.

"Sure" I say smiling

"I'm Wesley by the way, but you can call me Wes" he says smiling

"Hi, I'm Ella. Ella Somulton. Nice to meet you" I say with a smile

"So what brings you here then Ella? Don't like the party?"

"No No!!! It's a great party, but I just wanted to take pictures, that's all" I say

"Oh so your a photographer?" Wesley asks

"Well I want to be, I'm only 17 so we'll see what will happen. What do you do Wes?"

"Well I basically live music, I really hope I can make it big someday"

"That's so cool! Do you sing at all?"

"Yeah all the time haha"

I take a closer look at him.

"Wait, we're you performing on the stage before?"

"aha yeah I was, did you like it?"

"I loved it! It was incredible! You really do have a talent."

He smiles.

"Thanks, so let's see these pictures of yours"

"Um, Well, Okay but they aren't very good but here you go"

I hand him the camera, and he starts flicking through them all.

"I was at the beach earlier today taking pictures so there's probably a lot on there"

He stops flicking through them all and holds the camera closer to his face.

"Hold on a second, it was you that was taking pictures of me earlier today! I knew you looked familiar!" He says

"Im sorry what?" I ask confused

"Here, look at this photo, thats me!"

I take the camera back and look at the photo. Its the one of the guy after he was surfing. I look at wes. Then back at the picture.

Its exactly the same.

"Oh um, yeah, well i don't actually know what to say, thats a bit embarrassing" I say shyly

Wesley laughs

"Its a really good picture! But you know, now i have to take some pictures of you to make it even"

"Oh dear lord no!"

"Yes! its only fair!"

"no!'

"yes!"

"but..i..no!!!"

"This counts as stalking you know" Wesley laughs

"Oh fine then!"

"Success!" He says as he pulls out his iphone

I laugh at him.

"Now smile!" He says

I do as he says and pull a smile.

"Very pretty" he says

I blush.

"Since were taking pictures, i might as well take some" I say

"Go for it" Wesley says

I get my camera out and tell him to come next to me so we can take a picture together. I hold the camera up high, Wes puts his arm around my waist holding me tight, I instantly feel protected. I take the picture.

"All done!" I exclaim

"Not quite"

Wes takes his phone out again and starts taking pictures of me like he's some sort of paparazzi.

"Stop it" I laugh

"Just getting all the pictures i need" He says winking

"Your a dork Wesley"

"Well thats a bit mean"

"It's true though, you a--, AHHHHH WESLEY PUT ME DOWN!!!" I scream

Wesley has picked me up and thrown me over his shoulder.

"I'll put you down, if you take it back"

"ALRIGHT! FINE! I TAKE IT BACK! PUT ME DOWN!"

"That's better" He says putting me down

I stand there in front of him bewildered. Then i just end up looking at him and his eyes, his deep brown eyes,and his hair. The shape of his body and just simply his smile and how it seems so bright. I only come back to my senses when i hear Nicole calling my name.

"Ella! c'mon Ella lets go!" Nicole yells

"I, I..Im sorry but i gotta go" I say to Wesley

"I'll walk you to your car" He says

I agree and Wesley walks with me.

"So will i see you again Ella? I had really good fun tonight" He says

"Hmm, i dunno, i guess we can see each other again" I laugh as i chuck my things in the car.

"But i had fun tonight too, thanks Wes" I continue

"Tell you what, i'll meet you at the swings?" He says

"Okay deal, I'll be waiting" I say with a smile.

He wraps his arms around me and holds me tight while he hugs me. He smells like aftershave. I pull apart.

"Seeya Wesley"

"Bye Ella"

--

Wes' P.O.V:

"Wes come on! It's time to go!" Keaton yells from downstairs.

I sigh. Today was the day id been dreading since New Years.

She was leaving.

For good.

My head had been pounding. I've been more sleepless now than ever. My heart has been broken but it's not her fault. It's not anyone's or anythings fault. It's just something I can't fix.

I'll never forget the first time I ever saw her, taking pictures on the beach, of me might I add. I chuckle at the thought. I'll never forget the first time she ever spoke to me. The way her voice was so shy yet so welcoming. The way you wanted to just listen to her talk all day.

She meant more to me than any person ever could. She drove me insane and made my heart pound at the same time.

"Wes! Hurry up or we're leaving you!" Keaton screams.

I grab my snapback but then decide against it remembering that Ella doesn't really like them. I knew her better than anyone. I got an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. You won't always be my subconscious mentions. I push that to the back of mind and head down the stairs, but I know that even if I push it away it doesn't make it any less true.

--

"Ella you dont understand. OK what i did was stupid and i'll never be able to fix that. But i want to start again. Im sorry Ella, for it all, i really am. I wish i could've just gone back to see you then this wouldnt have happened. But for some reason you came back into my life and im not going to screw it up this time."

I look Wes straight in the eyes and he looks into mine.

"We were 17, and i only realize now that things have changed and we, i especially need to move on with our lives. We both have things we want to do with our lives. Its different now"

Wes shakes his head and smiles.

"Nothing different Ella, Not for me anyway. Sure We're older, but even two years ago i found myself falling for a girl, and no matter what i did i couldnt stop thinking about her. I wanted her. and i still want her"

Wes could be right. Maybe its not different. The guy i fell for two years ago is sitting right in front of me and he's not any different.

Wes and i move closer together, and im not stopping myself.

"So what happens now." I ask

"We could just forget it all happened and just be friends, because that seems like the only avaliable option right now."

My stomach turns.

"But i...i dont want to.." I say

Wes' face comes closer to mine.

"Just say no if you want me to stop" He whispers

--

Ella's P.O.V:

I didn't know what I'd miss most about home. Watching it all pass by me as I sit in the back seat of the car makes me remember everything I ever did in this town. I know I won't be coming back here. I won't work here and its strange to think that this place that has been my home for nearly 19 years won't be my home in a few short hours.

"You alright in the back there Ella?" Luke asks from the drivers seat.

"Yeah, I'm ok"

--

"This morning I found out that Nicole and Luke are engaged, I don't want to lose her Wes, not like I lost Jordan, then I'll have no one"

Wes pulls me into him "you'll always have me" he whispers. I smile, but I guess that comment was kind of expected though.

"It'll be ok" he says smiling at me. I remember that just a few days ago it was me saying that, and I was the one being the comforter. It's funny how things can change in just a short space of time.

"Thank you" I whisper back to him. He kisses the top of my head and just holds me in his arms.

--

Wes' P.O.V:

"Do you think she'll come back and see us?" I ask Drew who is driving Keaton and I to the airport.

"Dude.. Stop being ridiculous"

"But what if she doesn't"

"Then we'll go to her" Drew shrugs as if it's no big deal.

"..ok" I say giving in.

"Look man, I get it. You don't want to lose her. But I'm sorry this sounds harsh but you have to face it, she's leaving. But that doesn't mean it'll be the last time you see her"

I let out a loud sigh in my seat. "I just always thought I'd have her" I whisper to myself. I don't think Drew heard but when he slightly turns his head to look at me I know otherwise.

--

I was walking a little bit behind his gurney. I remember hearing another gurney coming in close behind, doctors running and telling us and the people holding Keatons gurney to move to the side because their patient needed medical treatment right away. I stopped and stood up against the wall. I watched as they ran past with the patient and the gurney.

I saw her so peaceful. So pale. Eyes closed and it appeared that she wasn't breathing. I did a double take when I saw who it was. Drew saw who it was as well and turned to hold me back as I screamed out her name and fought to get to her.

I screamed and screamed her name, but she didn't hear. I still screamed out her name as I struggled against Drews hold. Drew put up a good fight. I wasn't going to give up. I screamed out her name more and more. I pushed and shoved but Drew wouldn't budge.

When she and the doctors had turned a corner. Drew pushed me up against the wall and pinned me there.

"Stop" he said simply. His arm pushed up against my chest, keeping me against the wall.

"DREW I HAVE TO GET TO HER I CAN'T LEAVE HER"

"I KNOW WES! JUST NOT NOW! YOU CAN'T WES!"

"DREW LET ME GO!" I screamed in his face.

"SHE'LL BE OK. WE CAN'T DO ANYTHING FOR HER RIGHT NOW. THE DOCTORS WILL HELP HER WES. I KNOW YOU WANT TO BUT THERE ISN'T A SHITLOAD YOU CAN DO RIGHT NOW. YOU HEARD THEM, SHE NEEDS FAST MEDICAL TREATMENT, YOU WON'T BE DOING YOURSELF ANY FAVOURS IF YOU SEE HER" Drew yelled at me.

"DREW I CAN'T LET HER GO" I said struggling against his hold.

"YOU WON'T LET HER GO. I KNOW HER AND I KNOW SHE'LL FIGHT FUCKING HARD TO STAY ALIVE"

"Drew please" I pleaded. tears forming in my eyes.

"You can't Wes. Not right now. Your family needs you, I promise you can see her after we know if Keatons alright." I knew Keaton was ok. His gurney had long gone and so had my mum.

"What if it's too late by then" I whispered as tears rolled down my cheeks.

Drew pulled me into a hug. "It'll be ok, she'll be ok. I know it. She's strong"

--

Ella's P.O.V:

"Ella.." I hear after someone taps my shoulder.

"Mmm?" I mumble from my sleep.

"We're here"

"Oh.. Ok"

I get out of the car and Nicole and Luke insist on carrying my suitcases and I have no strength to argue with them.

"What do you think you'll miss the most?" Nicole asks as we make our way through the airport doors.

Wes. I instantly think. He's the thing I'd miss most.

I'd miss the walks along the pier and the beach. I'd miss the drives we'd take to nowhere. I'd miss being able to tell him everything that went on in my day and him just listening to me with everything he had. I'd miss the little things he'd do like letting me wear his clothes. When he sends me songs that he thinks I'll like. When he traces little circles and letters on my back to relax me. When he instinctively pulls me closer when someone else talks to me. I'd miss when he carried me up to my room after I'd fallen asleep watching a movie. I'd miss when he'd know when something is wrong and he cup my face in his hands and gently ask if I was ok. I'd miss his laugh when I'd get embarrassed at something. I'd miss his grumpy face when I'd say something to insult him. I'd miss the goodnight texts he'd send me every night even if we weren't talking before I slept. I already did miss them. I'd miss when we'd banter on about movies we've watched and how he's a big softy for Disney movies.

I'll miss the way he says my name when he's angry, happy, sad or annoyed with me. I'd miss when he says he loves me in my ear and in front of everyone else.

I already miss him. I feel so numb without his arms wrapped around me. I feel empty. I thought I knew what it felt like to miss someone close to you or a loved but the truth is I had no clue what it felt like until I knew I had lost Wes for good.

"Probably the people" I finally answer Nicole.

--

"I need you more than you think" I whisper as I read the note.

"It's true" I hear from behind me.

I spin around to find Wes leaning up against the side of the entrance to the gazebo.

"Wes? What is this?" Holding out the note.

Wes pushes himself off of the side and straightens up.

"Well, I had to do something to get the girl I love back"

I feel like my breath has been taken from me. My cheeks begin to burn so I look down. I feel Wes' presence come closer to me. He lights puts his hand under my chin and tilts it up so my eyes lock with his. You can know a lot about a person by the way you look into their eyes; and looking into his I realise something's come back that I've missed. That sense of safety and warmth.

--

Wes' P.O.V:

I love her.

That's all you need to know about me.

I love Ella Somulton.

I love the way she talks. The way she bites her lip when she's embarrassed or nervous. I love when she wraps her arms around my neck. The way her head fits perfectly in the crook of my neck. When she listens to music and dances around the room like an idiot and doesn't care. When she concentrates and her face focuses hard on her work. I love that she has an obsession with gum even though she doesn't realise it. I love it when she wears her glasses when she reads a book. I love when she sits in the sun on the floor to draw or the fact that she cannot cook. I love that she cares for everyone else above her. I love how she gets frustrated with her hair when it doesn't tie up properly.

I love the way her hand fits in mine or when she hugs me she holds me like it'll be the last time she ever see's me. I love when she rubs my back when I'm frustrated and tired. I love when she gets excited when she beats me in a video game. I love watching her surf because when she does she can be herself and not worry about anything. I love when she smiles with her eyes and says 'I love you'.

I fell for her so hard and I'll never forget the way she made me feel.

--

"Baby.."

"what." I say grumpily.

"It's just me." Wes whispers in my ear.

"I know, what are you doing?" I grumble.

"I wanted to spend the last half hour of my birthday with you" I can feel his smile widen in the darkness.

"How the hell did you get in here?"

"The window"

A normal human being would've used the door but ok.

"Wes close it, it's getting cold" I say.

"I hear body heat helps keep you warm"

"Well come on then" I say lifting the duvet covers so he can clamber in next to me.

Wes wraps his arms around me tightly, pulling me closer to his chest. I rest my head on his chest and close my eyes.

"I've never loved someone so much before" I whisper to him.

Wes kisses the top of my head "You mean the world to me"

--

Ella's P.O.V:

I had gotten my bags taken off me already and I had my boarding pass in hand. I just needed to be called up to board.

Everyone was here. Everyone close that is. Carter, Katie, Becca, my parents, Jordan, Nicole and Luke, but Keaton, Drew and Wes were yet to come.

I didn't think I would be but sitting here minutes away from getting on a plane to go thousands of miles away I can say I'm ready.

So much had happened and they all changed me for the better.

"Hey Ella.." Nicole says.

I turn to her and she's pointing behind me. I follow the direction of her arm and see she's pointing at three boys. The three boys who have changed my life so much in the past months.

I don't exactly drop my things and run to them but I do put my things down and don't make any hesitation to go up to them.

As soon as Wes becomes into my reach I throw my arms around his neck and he holds me by my waist. "You came" I say letting a few tears escape.

"Of course I came" He says holding me tighter.

"I'm sorry" I say really quickly.

Wes pulls apart and holds my shoulders. He looks me in the eye. "What could you possibly be sorry for?" He asks.

"I'm sorry for all the time I wasted being angry at you, I'm sorry that you love me more than you should, I'm sorry things ended the way that they did and I'm just sorry I'm not going to be there for you like I promised I would I'm--" I'm cut off by the familiar feel of Wes' lips on mine.

Everything. Everything I'm feeling or thinking just goes away by his touch. The way he makes me feel. His hand comes up to my cheek to cup it and he gently strokes my cheekbone with his thumb. I don't stop him. Why would I? I've been holding on way too long and I need him. More than I'll ever need anything.

I don't care that my family is watching or the whole airport maybe watching. Ok that's I lie I do care but not enough to make me pull away. So it surprises me when Wes is the one to pull away first.

"Stop being sorry and just get on with your life" He says smirking.

I grip the collar of his shirt. "Excuse me, I wasn't done" I say smiling. Wes grins and he brings his lips to mine again.

"So I would kind of like to say goodbye to her as well Wes" Keaton says interrupting us.

Wes rolls his eyes and lets go of my waist.

"Come here" I say reaching out for Keaton. We both embrace each other in a hug and I'm glad we're about the same height because I don't have to strain to get up to his height.

"Don't ever change please," I whisper in his ear. "Please just stay the same. You're such a good friend Keaton, you're like my little brother and I really don't know what I would do without you" I finish and pull apart from him. We both give a goofy smile like we always have to each other then I kiss him on the cheek. "Be good" I finally say.

Drew practically attacks me from behind and pretends to cry while he begs me not to go. "But Ella there's so much we didn't do!" He says. "So much we didn't see!"

"Drew!" I whine.

"But Ella please don't go!" He tries to plead with me.

I laugh and rub his back. "Drew you big softie! Now get off of me" I tease.

"No!" He says and lifts me over his shoulder.

"Drew!" I screech. "Put me down! Now!"

Drew laughs and puts me back on my feet. "I'm gonna miss you least of all" I joke stabbing a finger into his shoulder.

"C'mon Ella, we both know that's not true" He scoffs.

I can't resist. I clamber into his arms again. "Be safe Drew. And like I said to Keaton, please don't ever change. I do want to see you again ok? I'll miss you so much" I say hugging him tighter.

He hugs me back with his all. Drew has always been there for me. He's kept me same when I've felt like exploding most days. He was there for me when I felt like no one else was and I'll never forget that.

"I'll miss you too El" He says into my neck.

"And Drew? Look after Wes for me. Take care of him" I ask him as my final request.

"Of course I will" He says and we let go of our embrace. I give him one last smile and turn to my family who have tears in their eyes. Except for Jordan of course.

"Stop blubbering guys I'll see you guys again" I half laugh.

"I'm just so proud!" Mum says.

"Yeah Ella, you're chasing your dreams and we're so proud of you for that" Nicole agrees with mum and gives me a smile.

I tackle them all in a big group hug. "I'll miss you guys" I say.

When we come apart I say my last goodbyes to Carter, Becca and Katie and warn them that if they don't contact me they're all in trouble. The all agree and give me one final hug.

I pick up my bags just as the final call for my flight comes over the intercom.

I turn to everyone suddenly frightened. "Well I guess that's it then" I say as some tears fall from my eyes. Everyone gives me a smile and I return it with my own.

I turn to Wes. He's looking down at the ground. He doesn't want this to be a hard goodbye as well. I take my bags and walk up to the lady at the desk and give her the plane ticket to the rest of my life and once she stamps it she hands it back.

"Seat 301 dear" She says with a smile.

"Thanks" I say giving her a smile.

"Ella wait!" Wes' all too familiar voice calls. He runs up to me and pulls me into his chest and I begin to cry again.

"I want you to know that if I had to take back any of the moments I spent with you I wouldn't. I've told you once before that you're my world and you mean everything to me and I mean it. I don't care how far apart we are from each other I want you to know that a bit of me will always love you and that will never change. I love you so much and you're the best thing that's ever happened to me," He says into my ear as I cry into his chest.

"I love you, Wes" I say looking up into his eyes.


Wes looks down into my tear soaked eyes and cups my cheeks with his hands. "God Ella. I love you more than anything" He says and he kisses me.

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A/N: IM JUST GONNA FRICKING CRY BECAUSE I JUST FINISHED NY FIRST AND FAVOURITE FANFIC I CAN'T BELIEVE IT I AM SO SAD BUT SO HAPPY OMG I JUST. (Btw there is an epilogue so DONT DELETE FROM YOUR LIBRARIES YET)

I just want to thank everyone who ever read this book. I never imagined it would get so popular. There were never times where I just wanted to give up on this I always enjoyed writing and I loved everyone saying they liked it. It honestly is the best feeling in the world to have people say they like your work I just agsjahak.

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