The Stolen Journal

The Stolen Journal ~ Chapter 7

The Stolen Journal ~ Chapter 7

Dedicated to OH_HOT_DAMN because I've had so many wonderful conversations with her and I promised her I would dedicate a chapter to her! 

I would also like to say a huge thank you to all my readers and especially my fans. I got to #330 on What's Hot. That's the best this story has ever got. It also got #4 on Action and #202 in Romance... That's HUGE for me! Thank you all so much... I love you!!

Sorry I'll let you read now..... ENJOY!!

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Dear diary,

Lately I've been thinking about Lynette a lot and how mum and her were best friends. I regret never getting close to her and seeing why they were so close. I mean Saxon got close with willow so why did i have to make up excuses to not go and meet her sons? Maybe i should try and get to know Lynette and her children for mum's sake at least. I still can't think of a way to make things up with Saxon. What if even if i try my hardest he still won't forgive me? What if we grow up not speaking to each other at all? I could practically here mum yelling about how close family should stick together and to never ever drift apart. I still can't help but cry when i think of them. I miss them so much it's hard not being able to speak to anyone but my friends, they're great support and all but i miss being able to run to my mom if i ever needed someone. I can't tell Aunt Jose we're not even close heck i couldn't even tell here about Julian! Sweet hot Julian Haha. When is he going to ask me to be his girlfriend?! Is it too soon? No.....well maybe, i already feel close to him and we have fun. I'm glad he trusted me enough to tell me about his twin brother being in prison. Maybe i should tell him about my parents. But am i ready?

Love, Arabella

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Julian never showed up to school. I got a text saying that his mum had an accident and had to go see her so he wouldn't be coming to school. I won't lie and so I won't miss him because I actually do miss him.

After school I went straight home to find Saxon on the couch watching television. I couldn't care less so I just left him.

I ignored him and went straight to my room to get my runners. I liked going to the gym. It let me forget about the world and forget about everything for that short time.

I put on my mini shorts and singlet and went straight to the kitchen to grab a drink. After a few minutes I fled the house in went to the gym.

After two hours I had finished up at the gym and I was all sweaty and sore. When I got back home I took a nice long shower and went downstairs to grab something to eat.

The house was empty once again. Aunt Josie was at work and Saxon would be at a friend's place. Julian had text telling me that he wouldn't be able to see me this weekend so I decided to make a girls night with Kaylee.

Julian hadn't officially asked me out but he was acting that we were. We've only really had two dates so I'm not sure we stand.

I'm still worried about Havana being pregnant. She doesn't want this baby but she doesn't have a choice. She would have to put her lie on hold for this baby.

I went up to my room while I waited for Kaylee and in the mean time I just wrote in my journal.

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Dear diary,

I'm sore!! Going to the gym is rough, but it helps me relax in an odd way. Just don't ask haha. I haven't seen Julian all day and its killing me i miss him. Do i sound needy?! Eww i hate being needy, not that there's anything wrong with needy people, other than sometimes their annoying but the- let me stop blabbering and just write. We had plans this weekend but he had to cancel, so I'm having a girl's night. He hasn't asked me to be his girlfriend but its tok soon for that right? I don't even know what i would say. I have plenty reasons to say yes but enough reasons to decline. Why is it whenever boys come in the picture its nothing but confusion? I've thought about giving Saxon a new game system to apologize but then i started freaking out and came up with a million reasons not to. What if he thinks I'm trying to buy his love and we end up drifting even more apart? I really need to stop thinking so much before i get a headache. Gahhh i need you mom more than ever. I hate being alone and having to figure everything out on my own. Having a sleepover with my girls will really help. I wonder what Kaylee got planned for-